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2009-02-01T16:30:00.001+08:00

MOVED!

http://unclearexplanationoftruths.blogspot.com/

2009-01-26T15:02:00.006+08:00

i know i have been missing for don't know how many long months.

well, i just don't feel like blogging and i had some problems.

i am thinking of deleting my blog sooner or later.

well, life's changed a lot.

oh well, i shouldn't be talking about it.

alright, i seriously don't know what to blog.

what's happening is for me to know, and for you to find out.

haha.

and ohh, i am so into the vampires. haha.

vampires are so cool and Edward is hot. hah.

i watched twilight movie twice.

it's so the romantic and nice.

sometimes i which my life could be like that.

i finish reading the twilight novel too.

and currently, i am reading new moon.

which is so an unexpecting continuation.

well, i know you people might think i am slow.

but who cares man.

i left 2 more novels to buy.

but they seems to be out of stock from popular.

haha.

alright then.

i need to go study since i promised someone to.

hah.

wish that i will update soon. haha.

it's like an unexpecting new beginning

2008-12-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

my blog will be rotting for don't know how much longer.

bye people.

2008-11-22T14:58:00.003+08:00

i want to have a new life.

i hate my current life.

i want the old someone.

i hate when someone change.

hais.

never mind.

2009 will be a new year for me.

i'll start afresh.

today's 22 November.

3 more days to Hong Kong!

haha.

but i don't want go.

i'll miss the channel U show, ‘Corner With Love'.

haha.

and i'll miss smsing someone.

3 days cannot sms already.

then another 5 days.

k stop it fathiah.

alright people.

i will be gone again.

hah.

i want to spend my night before Hong Kong with you

2008-11-09T15:39:00.002+08:00

i think i will be missing again.

i'll be back when i have found myself back.

and i am thinking of deleting this blog too.

bye.

2008-11-08T12:03:00.002+08:00

i want a break from everything.
i went to school for like the whole week.
and i am sick of everything already.
i don't know why.
i seem to lose interest.
i have got to get it back.

alright, i better start doing my proposal again.
as usual, it got rejected again.
i really got to find interesting games now.

anyways, i'll be going to 3C; with pure biology.
but i scared i can't cope with pure biology.
i want POA.
but that's only in 3D.
andand i had fun on 7 November.
andandand i am looking forward to SC November camp.
:DDD

i do have feelings, stop it please

2008-10-31T15:44:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry for not updating.
I can't for this few weeks.
very sorry.
i don't know how long more i'll be gone.
people who visit my blog and see no update,
i am very sorry.
and i'll link you people when i get back.
sorry.

i've got lots of things to be done. ):
SC November Camp! Sec 1 Orientation Camp! Hong Kong Trip!
woohoo.
i especially can't wait for Sec 1 Orientation Camp!
even though there are lots of thing to be done for me.
alright. got to go. bye.
and ohh i've watched High School Muscial 3 on 28/10.
haha.

2008-10-22T15:17:00.002+08:00

see that boy on the left?
it's his birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Martyn Chan.
i wish you all the best.
big boy already uh.
and you very bad uh.
don't want help me already.
smack you then you know.
haha.

i didn't get a good sleep.
cause that someone uh.
sleep late.
smack you then you know.
duty without Sofia = no fun.
Terminal 3!
hah. not that bad.
Mardhiyyah, Nabilah, Zahid and me same group.
kinda fun.
but the most boring things is all Maths questions.
hah.
after school was band meeting.
NYAA = boring.
then stayed in school with Jiayi for a while.
and someone extra.
hah.
then homed, walking in the rain.
huhu. best.
i don't know what i should do next.
one word, bored.

i wanted you to walk further. when you're here with me, it's the best.

2008-10-21T14:51:00.002+08:00

i wanted to wake up late.
but i ended up waking up at 9am.
right now i am freaking bored.
i went to school to hand it the form just now.
i met Wei Ting and Shireen.
alright, i am bored now.
very very bored.
i want someone's presence now.
ahh fine.
i think play my French Horn better.
can improve. hah.
ohh yah, i my baby 243 is back with me.
hah.
i just hate staying at home.
cause it's boring.
yadadada.

tomorrow got Maths trail at airport.
fun?
i don't think so.
hah.
we'll see how it goes tomorrow.

and damn.
i owe a lot of people presents.
freak.
and 23 October will be mum's.
shit.

alright, i don't know what to share.
my life's boring.
no interesting things happening.
(show sad face)

if i move on, you'll go back to your old self

2008-10-20T15:49:00.002+08:00

i am freaking bored.
my life's getting boring.
everything seems different now.
right after OBS.
wait, i'm not blaming OBS.
talking about OBS, i'm really missing it.
and i will always wear the cute OBS shirt with pictures on it. haha.
but too bad, now it has got grease. damn French Horn.
k stop it.
i'm bored.
i want to talk on the phone.
i want to have someone's company now.
i want to have a fun life.
not a boring one like now.
i miss hanging out until don't know what time.
now also i don't know who to hang out with.
sometimes i felt like a loner.
everyone has someone to be with.
but me all alone.
i felt like i have lost my friends.
hais. but i just don't want to lose you.
please. but i have to accept the fact that i am losing you.
i need you to light up my life.
i need you to listen to my complains.
i need you to cheer me up.
i need your company.
i want you to be here with me now.
please.
k enough.

yesterday was cousin's house.
i was suppose to go again today.
but well i'm just too tired.

and i seriously scared i won't be promoted.
my EOY sucks like freaking hell.
my A for Science is gone.
i got 53.5 /100.
how pathetic is that.
i failed my Maths and History already.
what more?
fail my overall marks.
hais.
i just don't know what's wrong with me nowadays.
all thanks to you.
you made me this way.
ahh enough.
i don't want to bring this matter up.

there won't be school tomorrow.
but i have to go hand in the form.
ahh lazy but have to go.
it won't be long.
and i swear i would be more bored tomorrow.
hais.

' you make me laugh when you told me that :) '

2008-10-18T13:29:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK FROM OBS ! *smiles*
i swear it's damn fucking fun uh.
thank you OBS.
you made me overcome my fears.
i want to go again, please.
aiming for the overseas one.

i miss OBS environment.
i miss getting bitten.
i miss sitting under the Sun.
i miss getting wet.
i miss sleeping in tents.
i miss walking in the dark.
i miss climbing the 101 steps.
i miss the self-cook food.
i miss walking in the forest.
and then saw wild animals.
i miss sitting on the boat to Ubin.
i miss PT.
and ohh getting harass by Hairi's instructor, Iskandar.
haha. he's cute ok. *slaps self*
i miss kayaking with Yeeseng.
i miss rafting.
i miss rock climbing.
i miss tunnel maze.
i miss CRC(confidence rope challenge).
i miss belaying people.
i miss jetty jump.
i miss night walk with Noora.
i just miss everything about OBS.
most importantly, i miss LIBRA !

JILL.

Alicia. Arfian. Fathiah. Iskandar. Jean. Joyce. Khairi. Mirul. Noora. Qi Wen. Sparrow. Yeeseng. Zhi Rong. Zul.
those people who make it happen.
*cheers*

and f*uck.
since OBS, everything has gone wrong.
with my results that sucks like fucking hell.
i failed my Maths and History already.
my Art is freaking pathetic.
everything is just so wrong.
this time my EOY was so badly done.
and also all this things bothering me.
i just want things to get back to way it was.
i want the old times back.
you don't know how damn fucking worried was I at OBS.
you never knew how much i care for you.
cause you don't bother to.
i miss talking to you on the phone.
i miss messaging you.
eventhough when we're near.
i miss complaining to you.
i miss sharing everything with you.
i miss those secret telling.
i miss those sweet talks.
i miss those small fights.
i miss calling you (name).
i miss poking your dimples.
i miss your cheeky smile.
i miss your blurness.
i just miss everything about you.
but i know you're happy with the way your life is now.
with your God Sisters and her.

right now, all i can do is wish you all the best.
thank you very much for everything.
i'm trying my best to move on.

' i think i have really lost you '

2008-10-12T12:28:00.001+08:00

i'll be gone from 13 - 16 October.
cause i'll be gone to OBS! yay!
so i won't be update till i come back.
i'll post what happen maybe.
i'll miss some people though.
huhu.
i want to have lots of fun.
but there's some things preventing me from.
stupid larh.
damn fucking irritating sia.

and ohh.
16 October will be Siti Mardhiyyah birthday.
huhu.

' stupid larh. you make me worry. '

2008-10-12T10:38:00.003+08:00

it's 12th October!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
TO MY DEAREST ABANG KHAIRUL AZREEN BIN ELIAS.
ADIK SAYANG ABANG.
present on the way.
haha. *winks*

and ohh yesterday was 11th.
it was Quzairi birthday.
i still remember though.
Happy Birthday aite.

2008-10-11T14:23:00.004+08:00

and again. i have been busy. (:

Wednesday;
Maths paper 2 was actually not that hard.
but still i lost marks.
cause i never study what Mr Ng told to.
and i regretted.
after school was with Amirah, Vivian and Alivia.

Thursday;
DnT paper was average.
i asked Mr Asta what's gonna come out right before the exam.
and everything did come out.
hah.
after that was off to queensway.
with Amirah, Vivian, Alivia, Yi Ting and Chloe.
buy camp stuffs.
then go home.
i go down again with mum this time.
to buy camp stuffs.
then homed and do art.

Friday;
i was up the night before.
Art was the best.
i finish very early.
i even had the time to play.
hah.
then it was OBS briefing.
lots of things to bring still.
saded.
and shit seh.
i bought twine and then say no nid.
and then there was band briefing.
it's about Hong Kong trip.
should i go?
it's more interesting than the Bangkok trip.
and some more, this is and intensive trip.
so everyone is like given another $600.
which means i can say the other $600 for OBS next year.
hahah.
how? i don't know.
then raya outing with 2 Express Malay pupils.
not all there.
Noora, Syafiah, Rahayu, Lydia, Imran, Iskandar, Zahid, Syabil, Arfian, Hakim, Hafiz, Hairi.
i think that's all.
haha.
went out until like 11pm.
but some did went home earlier.
i swear i was very tired.
after that had to go to my aunt's house some more.
but luckily it's just next block.
haha.
i was so sleepy and tired.
that i keep demanding my parents to go home.
hah.

Saturday, today;
i am gonna pack OBS things.
i think going out with family today.
not sure.
maybe i'll update again later.
or maybe not.
and next week i'm off to OBS for 4 days.
damn it.

when there's no her, there's another her. ;fish

2008-10-07T11:15:00.003+08:00

great.
thanks to yesterday incident.
i never study for Science.
i study last minute in the morning.
traffic duty was very chaos today.
some more Sofia not there also. :(
Science paper was so what the hell.
it's freaking hard.
i think this time no A for Science.
i wrote craps in Section B and C.
i don't know why i finish the paper fast.
then i sleep and waste time.
hah. stupid.
then there's Maths remedial.
i wasn't paying attention.
cause i know i will fail Maths.
ahh who cares.
stayed in canteen for a while.
wait for Amirah.
then homed.
i must study, but as usual i am lazy.
yeah. i have this lazy attitude.
k bye.
i want do Art.

edited/

Strange but interesting ideas will be bursting from your brain early today, but good luck getting any of them to become reality, right now. You are likely to deal with some unexpected eruptions from other people, which will definitely distract you. So don't have expectations that are too high, today. You need to slow down anyway -- you've been going too fast for too long and it's time to let other people take the lead. You might have the idea, but they have the energy and the resources necessary.

cool. thanks to friendster.
and it's like true can.
haha.
and ohh someone one also same.
but i don't know who's the someone mention.
huhu.

Are you ready to make a big impact on someone else's life, today? Good -- all you need to do is open your heart and be there for that person when they need you. It won't take much -- a sweet smile, an extra handkerchief, a sympathetic shoulder to cry on. But the littlest gestures you make will create a positive outcome in the life of someone who could use a friend. And you don't have to come up with words of encouragement, either. Listening is all you need to do.

thanks uh yesterday. and i failed to do it again.

2008-10-06T15:36:00.003+08:00

ish. deep dimples.

last Tuesday;
absent from school.
off to Malaysia.
reached then help prepare for Hari Raya.

last Wednesday;
1st day Raya.
do usual routine.
then wait for people to come.
some go Singapore.
then i tired, i sleep halfway.
never go out cause some of my aunts and uncles not back.

last Thursday;
same thing.
people come.
then at night go out.
money. money.
home. sleep.
eh not sleep.
study for history.

last Friday;
drive of to Singapore at 4am.
just to take that stupid History and Maths.
i arrive just on time to school.
the papers were no comment.
i forgot some points on History.
i screwed up Maths totally.
ahh, who cares.
i never finish both paper.
cause i was freaking sleepy, i kept falling asleep.
i went to KFC with Amirah and Vivian.
i went home.
wait for parents to come back.
i quickly call all the people on duty.
then drive off to Malaysia again.
then go out to visit relatives.

last Saturday;
went out again.
until night.
then it rain, and there's black out.
homed, take pictures, sleep.

last Sunday;
woke up early.
prepare to go home.
like finally.
before go home buy Spongebob stuffs.
reach Singapore at around 4pm.
homed, sleep.
wake up again.
then watch television.
lazy study.

Monday;
saded cause must wake up early.
traffic duty was dots.
like a lot never come.
ahh fine stop it.
halfway do duty got lightning warning.
back to class then.
Literature was so no comment.
i screwed it up like seriously.
i wrote craps.
ahh who cares.
chicken rice with Amirah and Vivian.
then Amirah followed me home.
we were "studying".
haha.
now i want go study science.
but i am lazy to mug.
hais.

random pictures;

1st day.

2nd day.

kak sheila.

abang taufiq.

it's happening again and again.

2008-09-29T16:13:00.002+08:00

yesterday out to Geylang.
not whole family.
with parents and sister.
well no need elaborate uh.
you know how Geylang is like.
we shopped till 12am.
then we headed home.
reach home at 2am like that.
cool huh.
and i never wake up for sahur.
hais.

today is still the same.
i got tease over my hair again.
hais.
English paper is so no comment.
it's kinda hard.
haiya, i don't care uh.
i suck at English.
what i know is that i am very sleepy.
i kept dozing off.
and and i am very hungry and thirsty seh.
hais.
i should have woke up for sahur.
after school DnT time.
even though i am very pissed off, i manage to finish the artefact.
yeah! and it works you know.
but with terms and conditions.
haha. yeah.
got some ways to use it.
the whole afternoon i was with Amirah and Vivian.
then homed, sit under block with Amirah for a while.
talk talk talk. well.
home, and prepare for tomorrow.
okay done.
i want sleep! haha.

Selamat Hari Raya in advance to all Muslims ! :D
maaf zahir dan batin yah. lols.

everything gone wrong again; my stupid sensitive/emotional. 3 days; @#$%^&*! hais.

2008-09-28T09:30:00.003+08:00

stupid younger brother of mine.(not the one in the picture)
he spoiled the plan of going to Geylang yesterday.
i was pissed off larh kan.
Hari Raya is just days away.
my family is not fully prepared.
hais.

and hey i am a good girl k.
i have washed all the shoes.
i have cleaned the house.
i helped mum in the preparation.
but i haven't do my revision yet.
i haven't clean my room.
eh wait.
my room very hard to clean cause got lots of books.
haha.

tomorrow is English Paper seh.
shit larh.
my English sucks like hell.
i hope i won't fail.
a just pass is good enough already.
cause i must go express.
and i want to finish DnT no matter what.
must finish.
that's the only day left.
cause I'll be off to Malaysia then.
hais.
i really got to buck up on studies myself.
alright.
bye people.
i want to study History and Maths today.

' things are back to normal i guess. i hope this lasts. '
and your company is needed tomorrow. please.

2008-09-27T13:08:00.003+08:00

i am totally bored without your company.
hais.
i waited and waited.
but still no.
i wasted my tears again.
i know you are busy.
but you weren't like this last time.
unless you are too busy accompanying her.
ahh fuck.
ohh wait.
or is it you are helping me to do it.
since you are doing it, so i must follow uh.
hais.
i don't want to but i have to accept it though.
you said you won't do it.
but it's all fakes and lies uh.
ahh fine.
you make me feel hatred, jealous, sad and etc.
damn, i am fucking emotional.

k bye humans.
i want to prepare for Hari Raya.
and holy shit, i haven't study for EOY.
hais.
next week i going Malaysia already.
i'll miss Tuesday and Thursday lesson.
which is like so important.
saded seh.
i have to do my own revision and also bring books to Malaysia.
pathetic seh.
and DnT also haven't finish.
i am so lack of time.
fish lurh.

' i guess i am really losing you as days goes by '

2008-09-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Wednesday;
i don't really remember what happen.
Science was revision paper.
PE stay in class watch some powerpoint.
Recess no comment.
Maths discuss answers.
English was observation time.
Mother Tongue no comment.
Contact Time was Maths again.
After school stayed for DnT.
i was pissed off.
don't want elaborate.
then homework time with Mardhiyyah, Imran, Iskandar, Zahid and James.
but i can't concentrate cause got many things in my mind.
hais.
homed and i was totally bored.
cause no company of someone.

Thursday;
i was rushing my Maths homeworks in the morning.
Art test i never complete.
Maths was discussing the homework.
Recess no comment.
Science the same thing again.
English was totally bored.
Assembly/LV was Maths again.
After school can't do DnT cause workshop close.
stupid seh.
so i went home.
Sister highlighted her hair, i cut my hair.
my hair sucks 100% and it's freaking short and ugly.
hais.
the style is also chose by sister.
and actually it wasn't suppose to be like that.
the auntie uh keep cutting shorter.
ohh well, it happen already.
saded seh.
and i fell asleep again cause no company.

Friday, today;
i woke up late.
i know i would be teased over my hair.
there it goes.
and fuck i don't know why i break down during break.
Mother Tongue paper was average.
but i no confident with my paper 2.
ohh well, who cares.
it's over.
now i am totally bored.
i need your company please.
hais.

i know it's freaking ugly.
i want my old hair back.
hais.
how much i regretted asking that auntie to cut.
i should have waited for the auntie that always cut my hair.
but too bad, it's been cut.
now i have to wait for my hair to grow again.

' i guess i have lost you and it's over also uh. but i don't want it to happen. '

2008-09-23T18:45:00.011+08:00

i always sit down and wonder and then maybe laugh at it

Monday;
Monday are always the best.
no flag raising.
i was super irritated with the acrylic.
it just so hard to stick it together.
i almost gave up on DnT.
Recess do same routine.
i waited for you to tell me but no.
Music test was super duper freaking easy uh.
i wrote craps for Literature test.
ohh well, i suck at poetry.
Mother Tongue was discussing answers.
i never pay attention cause i was in my own dreamland.
but at least i don't sleep, like Arfian.
and ohh i handed up the composition which i really wrote with emotions.
it was said to be a sweet one.
haha.
After school i planned to do DnT.
but i gave up then i help Zahid.
me, Imran, Iskandar and Zahid stayed in school like till 6.
we do Maths homework you know.
ahah. best oi.

Tuesday, today;
early morning already i no mood.
i spent my morning finishing up Maths.
Art was presentation again.
No Mdm Azzah = no history. hais.
Recess i was still writing the Malay idioms.
i got 24/30 for Maths test oi.
English always do same thing.
i slept during Science lesson.
Mother Tongue was workbook.
i wanted to continue my sleep but Arfian kept disturbing me.
After school i left my bag with someone and i rush off to POSB.
yeah i wanted to withdraw money.
and yeah finally i made my own cash online.
haha. lols.
then i went back to school i do DnT.
i am just afraid that i might not work.
hais.
i went to someone's class and continue figuring out how to make it work.
also cause i was waiting for Joanne.
then homed with Joanne and Gabriel.
and i love crapping with humans.
haha.

and i don't want to talk already.
might as well i just zip my mouth out.
i trusted the people so much.
but they do this to me.
i still keep their secrets.
ahh fine.
you can have life the way you want.
i don't give a damn at all.
and someone can go do the same to me also.

' i don't like the changes that are happening now. please no. '

2008-09-21T14:19:00.002+08:00

hah.
i want to laugh my ass off larh kan.
i don't understand why people nowadays 'teraser'.
ahaha. i don't give a damn.
i am gonna sit down and watch how it goes.
it won't be long kan.
huhu.
i swear tomorrow i am gonna sit down at the red table and let everything out.
and laugh like there's no tomorrow? hah.

i have cleaned the house.
but homeworks not done.
haiyo. i just don't know Maths.
never mind tomorrow no Maths.
yeah.

i want to complete DnT by tomorrow.
i really want to complete it.
2 hours of DnT lesson and after school.
that should be enough.
cause maybe next week i won't be coming to school.
yeah.

' it's still going on, not ended '

2008-09-20T10:59:00.004+08:00

i felt odd today.
i don't have to wake up early for band.
and somehow i miss band.
but however i had to woke up early.
so i never really had 11 hours of sleep.
i haven't start doing my chores yet.
i'll do it after this.
i want to study Maths like crazy today.
and anyways Mr Ng gave lots of revision work.
i'm not complaining over it.
in fact i will do it.
i want to pass Maths and History.
after Mr Thomas and Mdm Lorena spoke to us, i felt more confident.
if i give my best, i can pass my exams.
and i am thinking what subject should i take.
Imran said it would be good if i take triples since my Science is not bad.
i don't know if i should take History/Literature/Geography.
cause i seem to suck at all of them.
i want to take F&N cause it's cool.
i never want to go to 3A or 3B.
cause i know i can't cope.
i think 3C would be the best.
but well, i'll decide when the result is out.

and wth, she actually go spread untrue rumors about me to others.
and then it ended up to someone who i am very close to.
please larh ehs.
you think i want him back? NO! i have moved on.
and think i am jealous. no way.
i have someone much much better in my life whom i can depend on.
like i said, i don't need a boyfriend, i just need someone who cares for me.
and i think i have found mine currently.
and i have a best abang.
eventhough i'm not his only adik, he said i'm his first and the best. hah.
yeah. get a life people.

' i haven't decide and you said you'll always support me '

2008-09-19T21:49:00.005+08:00

Thursday;
Duty was alright.
All the boring lessons.
Art was presentation.
We finished the last chapter for Maths if not wrong.
There was some misunderstandings at recess. wtf.
Science was again assessment book and i am bored with it.
English was comprehension again.
LiVE/Assembly was a bit of Maths and Oral preparation for some people.
After school i stayed in class to figure out what has to be done for DnT.
i wanted to go home, but i ended up in the workshop.
thanks to someone and say only want help. hah.
and again i broke the wood and acrylic.
so i had to redo the base.
and this time Mardhiyyah said it was nice and perfect. huhu.
i waited till the workshop close.
cause i wait for Amirah.
i don't know why, halfway through i change mood. hais.
we sit under my block and talk before we go home.
homed i sleep. woohoo.
and ohh i heard the news from Hairi.
i was like wtf and laugh my ass off.
then i told him what makes person A (fill in the blanks) person B. hah.
Hairi also think that way.

Friday, today;
i woke up at 1.30am to study.
i got less than 5 hours sleep. hais.
but luckily someone never scold. huhu.
i was having last minute revision in the morning.
Maths test was not that hard.
except for Venn Diagram cause i never study.
and i was stupid to not see the last question.
and also anyhow tell teacher got typo error cause i count wrongly.
Science test i think i screwed it up.
hell. who cares.
Recess i wanted to have a nap, but people were noisy. hah.
then me and Maizurah was laughing our ass off over something. haha.
History Mdm Azzah was not in a mood.
we did a worksheet, the one which Hairi and Imran was doing during recess. hah.
LiVE lesson was the most unforgettable scene.
i don't want to elaborate.
but don't worry alright.
we all forgive you.
and ohh i got 18/20 for my English Oral. woohoo.
but Mardhiyyah got 19. crazy. hah.
After school i went to do DnT again.
but this time with Mardhiyyah.
we tried to print the 3D drawing, but hell we can't.
then we figure out how to make the plank move.
Mardhiyyah went home early.
i stayed and helped Joanne out.
then homed with Joanne and Atiqah and sleep.
night i went for the bursary ceremony.
tonight i want to sleep for 11 hours.
cause i promised someone to do that on Thursday. hah.

tomorrow Saturday.
no more band.
i am going to bank, wash shoes, clean house, study.
woah. i want to mug. hah.
and i want to fast but i can't. hais. saded uh.

' i haven't had the last company of yours yet '

2008-09-17T19:54:00.005+08:00

i know the edit sucks.

i know i have not been myself this few days.
some things happening.
i won't tell you.
go figure it out yourself.

Monday;
i hate rainy days.
morning duty was kinda chaos.
i can't do it alone.
Sofia wasn't there.
then my member like blur2.
but lucky there's the EXCOs helped.
DnT suck today i guess.
no wait DnT don't suck, i suck.
i broke the wood and acrylic.
power huh.
and i hurt myself with the driller 3 times.
cool huh.
recess i had no duty.
but i love sitting at the red table.
Music was Angklung test.
i scored not that bad uh.
next week got test again.
There was no Literature.
Miss Sheena came and she told us to do a town using two-point perspective.
i didn't manage to complete it.
i only drew the tall buildings.
Mother Tongue was all about composition.
i got bored you know.
and ohh thanks Arfian for your advice.
you always helped me whenever i wanted to break down.
i went home straight today.
i was like some lonely human.
i went home i ignore someone,i break down, i sleep.
i can't believe that it's happening again.
i went out with cousin at night cause she's pressure.

Tuesday;
i hate Tuesdays.
it seems to be a very long day.
Sofia's back for duty.
but saded, i had to guide the sec 1s.
and i told Sofia all about it.
Mdm Rafilah wasn't here for Art.
Maths was combined class again.
it was the worst recess for me and maybe someone.
the people who's there should know.
History was source-based test; i suck at it.
English was summary writing.
Science was assessment book again.
Mother Tongue was still the same thing.
i was so not in the mood.
and i believe someone was not in the mood too.
so yeah.
we both show that emo/mood less face.
i didn't went home straight.
i walk around for a while.
then halfway, i met Hafiz and accompanied him.
then homed, i fell asleep, i didn't manage to ignore, i was being comforted.
and i stayed up like till 1 am.
i finish up my homeworks and also make cornflakes with sister.
actually not make, i helped her. hah.
we were trying to learn and it's our first time.

Wednesday, today;
our conversations is still on. hais?
Morning i rushed my undone homeworks.
Duty was fine.
Science was again assessment book.
P.E was best always.
i ran non-stop and i was first again. an achievement alright.
i played like nobody business cause i need a break from all these.
by recess i was so tired.
it was super freaking hot and i was perspiring like hell.
and we had a talk but it doesn't seem like one.
and again, i almost break down.
Maths was kinda bored.
English was comprehension.
Mother Tongue was composition again.
and we were given a homework on a title ' A Gift That You Treasures'.
i initially wanted to write about someone special i had known.
but Arfian said no. hah. saded.
then he ask Syabil to give me a topic.
and Syabil stupid answer was that human.
see i always got bullied in class.
Oral i just screwed everything up.
i accompanied Siying to take the photo then back to school then homed.
and yes i fell asleep again cause my company's gone.

i am suppose to study but well i am lazy. i am changing my blog soon.

16 September 2008.
i let everything out at once.
the letters said it all.
i delete all the information from our phone.
but we can't forget those numbers.
i can't believe i did that.
i just made someone felt heavy over my actions.
we wasn't in the mood after that.
i made someone that way.
i made someone felt very lost and bad.
all the way at the red table we were so quiet.
not a word said, we would just stare.
and i teared of course.
you know i am one very very very sensitive girl.
i can't make a decision alone.
i need yours too.
but you'll always tell me that you respect and support my decision.
we weren't suppose to be in contact.
but we are still.
i want to be close to you forever and be the bestest one too.
i know that you will be there for me if i need a shoulder to cry on or help.
but now i don't know what's the best.
but i still believe that you are one different person.
everything's gonna end i guess.
i don't know.
it's just too hard for me.
and maybe for someone too.
and i want to have your last company please.
i want to sit down and chat with you like there's no tomorrow.
hais.
and i'll miss those great times we shared.
i really will miss everything about you.

' i shed tears cos i just love you too much '

2008-09-14T14:13:00.003+08:00

i am very lazy.
i woke up at 12noon.
mum told me to clean the house but i heck care.
i haven't do any of my homeworks.
the art tessellation is so hard to do.
i seriously don't know how to do.
i search the net they give me crap.
the EOY prevents me from staying in Malaysia from 1st day of Hari Raya till weekends.
stupid larh.
i will change my blog skin after EOY.
i want a new school bag, mickey mouse MP3, new phone.
k fine.
i want go do my homeworks and clean the house a bit.
next week got morning duty.
yayness.
cause can crap with Sofia.
and sec 1s joining us.

and ohh i learn something.
i don't need a boyfriend, i just need someone who cares for me.
*winks*

' i just want you to know i need your care and i always care for you '

2008-09-13T20:21:00.005+08:00

First of all i start with the quiz which Yusry approach me to do. hah.
and also by Rita and Maizurah.

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket ?
Paris? Australia?

2. What's your favourite thing to do ?
lots of things.

3. Do you think money can buy happiness ?
yes. no. maybe.

4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be ?
some Genius's brain.

5. Things you can't live without :
loved ones. .handphone. many many things.

6. What are you afraid to lose ?
loved ones and anything valuable to me.

7. If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do ?
shopping like there's no tomorrow.

8. What do you dream of doing in the future ?
study to a very high level.

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey:
Yusry: nice. one good soccer player. friendly.
Rita: friendly. nice. kind.
Maizurah: my best/pretty/understanding adik

10. What makes you happy ?
chocolates. ice cream. songs i like. someone.

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
who makes people life difficult.

12. If you have a super power what would it be?
control my life from all those who had ruined it.

13. Would you go for happiness or money ?
maybe both.

14. Who do you think is the most important people in your life ?
my parents.

15. If you have a girlfriend/boyfriend, would you die for her ?
not really die. but sacrifice yes.

16. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now ?
i want sit down and chat with someone like there's not tomorrow.

17. Who are you close to ?
my cousin Hafizah.

18. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like her /him?
i am not like some people who are so thick skinned. hah.

19. If you could do one thing all over again what would it be ?
never ever done such things last time.

20. 7 things that scare you:
GOD. lizards. heights. deep water. examinations. flying cockroaches. end of the world.

21. 7 things that you like/love the most:
company of my loved ones. music. camera. chocolates. computer. chatting. sports.

22. 7 important things in my room:
wardrobe. clothes. study table. bookshelf. mirror. personal shelf. small drawer.

okay i am done. if you want do this just do. haha.

now back to blogging.

what-the-hell larh.
i keep falling asleep.
then i never do homework/study.
and someone purposely never wake me up.
and then happily never sleep.
damn it larhs.
and it was so raining heavily today.
fish larh.
i was like so drenched.
and today was the last Saturday practice tutoring.
tutoring was always fun.
eh i think my sound is improving.
and ohh Eagle Bend is the best.
not forgetting March Beyond The Critical Point.
haha.
lunch time i went out with Azlin and Nadhirah to photocopy scores.
combine practice was alright.
when Mrs Chee said we might not play March Beyond The Critical Point for the competition,
i was like no way man.
the song so nice lorh.
we played and played.
Mrs Chee keep picking on French Horn today,
yes. today our pitching out.
especially for me and Nadhirah when we change to the lower parts.
we were used to high notes.
haha.
Eagle Bend shiok.
we really play the piece like hell.
and i think we improving.
and ohh the gliss part.
waah seh.
crazy but i'll practice.
haha.
then must stay back for the NYAA thing.
but actually like for sec 3s only.
pathetic oi Mrs Alice Gan.
after band went to hang out with Hafiz and Joanne.
not elaborating.
then homed and i fall asleep again.
stupid larhs.
and ohh my dearest 243 is gone for service.
now i using Aini's home.
saded larhs. i miss my 243.

alright. today i wasted a day.
tomorrow i must really study.
haiyo.
and i plan to use computer for like 1 hours only.
but then i keep dragging time.
haha.
EOY. EOY. EOY.
it keep bugging me.
haha.
and ohh i have not prepare anything for Hari Raya at all.
hais. too busy.

' when you look me in the eyes, and when i did the same too, it was great '

2008-09-12T19:30:00.001+08:00

woah. i haven't been updating for quite a while.
haha.
so i'm gonna summarize like everything.

Sunday;
i went out to library with cousin.
we study oi. haha.
then we went to IMM.
and we did lots of camwhoring you know.
with cousin N95 8GB phone.
power siol.
haha.
photos cannot be uploaded.
cause i now using dad's phone and mum's memory card.
haha. yeah.

Monday;
Timetable change.
all slack lesson on Monday.
cool huh.
DnT this time all i have to do.
haha.
cause Mardhiyyah is afraid of the machines.
lols. cute sia.
Recess duty was fun.
Angklung performance was alright.
we get to play new Angklung while 2c take old one.
and its very stupid lorh.
i must stand at the front row.
haha.
GM was alright.
me and Sofia sitting at the back crapping.
haha. yeah.
then have Sec 1 Orientation.
i had fun.
haha. yes2.
sec 1s SC must be more enthu aite next time.
haha.
and ohh i remember something happen to me.
i banged onto the shutter.
and everything was blank then.
and after that my head keeps spinning.
cool huh.
ahah.
and me and Sofia was shivering in the AVA.
it was bloddy cool.
and ohh thank you Sofia for your care.
much much appreciated.
and also someone. (:
so i went home with Joanne again and it was time to break fast.
best oi.
and i spend my night on Maths.

Tuesday;
all the main subject in one day.
and i swear today was very long.
lessons was all the way boring.
boring also still must pay attention.
no choice.
i absolutely don't know how to do the tesselation.
hais.
recess duty sitting at the red table was fun.
haha.
after school i went for the OBS checkup.
it cost me $18.30 for just a pathetic 5-10 minutes check up.
i shrunk in height and i increase in weight.
damn it.
then i went back to school for the interview.
i am not elaborating.
haha.
then again went home and it was time to break fast.
i like.
and again i spend my night on Maths.

Wednesday;
Lessons are the same and boring.
ohh there's P.E.
i was running ahead of the class and i didn't stop.
and achievement you know; yet i was fasting.
haha.
Captain's Ball i like.
long time never play.
i had fun.
but nevertheless, i fall down again.
Recess duty, i so no more energy.
i shouldn't have wasted my energy lorh.
stupid rite.
haha.
and ohh there's MT test.
Arfian kept disturbing me.
grr.
despite that i was kind enough to be his answer sheet.
haha. yeah.
and fuck lorh.
halfway through the test my pain came.
stupid larh.
but i still endured all the way.
and someone i was worried more cause it's more serious.
after school i stayed in class alone.
i pasted the papers on the notice board.
and did some cleaning.
then halfway through Hairi came and said Mr Tan called me.
i panic. i thought i did something wrong or because of the old case.
but actually he wanted me to listen to the way the Kayak Leader speaks.
what-the-hell.
i so don't know how to comment people.
all thanks to that Hairi larh.
stupid/bloddy fool. haha. joking.
i went home and fall asleep.
then i woke up right on time before breaking fast.
and again, i spend the night on Maths.

Thursday;
i had to come school early cause the class tag with me.
Art, i so don't know how to do the tessellation.
i was in Mrs Ong SB Maths class.
hais. i want Mr Ng HJ.
Recess duty was some lame jokes shared by Hairi and Khairi.
after recess lessons were boring.
Science and English and Assembly/LV.
then it was band.
it's kinda fun.
me and Nadhirah kept laughing all the way.
yeah.
i am so in love with 'Eagle Bend'.
woohoo.

Friday; today
it was super cold.
Maths lesson was so long.
Mrs Ong was absent.
so Mr Ng take us all.
Science lesson was even more boring.
and as always Uzair and Samuel loves making Mdm Rohani angry.
hahs. thus Uzair was told to sit at the back of the class.
last day of recess duty which is the most fun. saded. haha.
History was note taking again.
LiVE was change to English.
we did oral presentation.
and oral is so next.
pathetic discussion. boring.
then it was self-practice.
i practice like from after school till 5.30pm.
woah. hahas.
i practiced with Joanne yaw.
and French Horniest never fails to make me laugh my ass off.
haha. yeah.
i didn't went home with Amirah but with Atiqah.

tomorrow is the last Saturday band practice.
Band close down for EOY.
gosh EOY.
it's so the near.
and i like never study anything.
except for some Maths.
i really got to buck up.
but whenever i want to study, i will fall asleep.
cause someone phone is with parents at night.
so i don't have company and i will fall asleep.
damn it lorh.
i must learn to be independent. hahs.
alright humans.
Good Luck for your EOY.
and i very saded.
next year we're gonna split class.
no more 2D already.
no more joking around in class.
no more one for all, all for one already.
hais.
we're gonna have new friends around.
no way.

' when you're close to me, i feel very secured and protected '

2008-09-07T12:26:00.002+08:00

I am very pissed off!
my charger broke down at this time.
when i need it the most.
what-the-fuck.
now my battery is totally empty.
i need some important information send to me.
i know i need to contact my members later on tomorrow's GM.
i have just lots of things to do with my phone.
now totally cannot use.
and i don't know where to get a charger.
my parents not buying me a new one.
damn it larh.
i'm so fucked up.
and i wanna talk to someone like seriously.

' sorry if i were to break down over again '

2008-09-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

alright.
random post.
i was bored. (:

1. Are you happy?
[yeah(:]
2. Who are you chatting with right now?
[hairi? lol (:]
3. What's the last thing you bought?
[err. coffee blended ice(:]
4. Who were the last people you hung out with?
[band mates(:]
5. Have you ever broken a promise?
[maybe once or twice. huhu (:]
6. Have you ever broke a friendship?
[err. i don't think so (:]
7. What are you most excited about?
[currently OBS (:]
8. What do you usually do when you're bored?
[camwhore, listen to music]
9. Who was the last person to text you?
[hairi? lol (:]
10. Who was the last person who gave you a testimonial?
[in friendster, MAIZURAH (:]
11. Have you ever talk to yourself?
[like duh. haha (:]
12. What is the hardest thing for you to say?
[life (:]
13. What do you want to receive on your birthday?
[anything on my wishlist (:]
14. Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
[my handphone? lol (:]
15. What time did you sleep last night?
[1.45am (:]
16. What can you hear besides the computer?
[music coming out from the speakers. haha (:]
18. What is your favorite line to say when bored?
[hais (:]
19. When was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek?
[last week (:]
20. The last person you were on the phone with?
[i haven't been on the phone for a while. haha (:]
21. What makes you frustrated?
[people who make people's life difficult (:]
22. What song are you listening to?
[JONAS BROTHERS (:]
23. Current mood?
[happy? sad? disappointed? bored?]
24. Who will you turn to if you have a huge prob?
[my dear mr hot with cute dimples. huhu (:]
25. What's your favorite song at the moment?
[JONAS BROTHERS songs (:]
26. What was the last song that kept ringing on your mind yesterday before you went to sleep?
[Burning Up. cause it's my message tone. haha (:]
27. What were the best events that happened last year?
[last year? man, i short term memory. haha (:]
28. Where have you been today?
[band (:]
29. Last thing you ate?
[fried bee hoon (:]
30. Who are you with right now?
[in the room alone (:]
31. Do you love sunsets?
[yeah, they are just so nice (:]
32. What are your wishes for your birthday?
[happy life (:]
33. Who do you wanna be with on the day of your birthday?
[friends (:]
34. Have you ever felt that you've been taken for granted?
[yeah. sometimes (:]
35. Thing/s you regret?
[something/someone (:]
36. Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey?
[go out. but someone don't let. (:]
37. Question/s you hate that they ask you?
[ohh i don't know. (:]
38. Chocolate cake or brazo de mercedes?
[of course chocolate cake (:]
39. How do you feel right now?
[i wanna see someone again (:]
40. What's your plan next week?
[school larh oi (:]
41. Missing someone?
[yerps! (:]
42. What's her/his role in your life?
[someone special to me (:]
43. Have you hurt somebody in the past?
[maybe once or twice. hehe (:]
44. The person who loves u most or the person u love most?
[hmm. i don't know. (:]

yeah. this is what happens when boredom strikes.

2008-09-06T19:38:00.002+08:00

i overslept sia.
shouldn't have sleep so late.
haha.
i do Art project uhs.
yessa, i finish it already.
and so i arrive band late.
haha. yeah.
French Horn pathetic oi today.
only have me and Nadhirah.
haha.
tutoring was alright.
but my sound 100% sucks.
i don't know why but i just can't pitch high note.
grr. damn.
me and Nadhirah keep laughing at our wrong pitching.
lols.
and ohh we played like the whole song of Eagle Bend.
and also March Beyond The Critical Point.
and ohh then Azhar and Sherley came.
so it makes us four now.

lunch time stayed in band room.
and Azhar let us listen to some songs which have lots of running notes.
yes. they are really one crazy humans.
the way they run the notes like nobody's business like that.
for us running 5 notes already pathetic.
how to run lots of notes?
haha.
combine was funny.
cause Azhar is always cracking jokes.
me and Nadhirah was laughing like hell.
yeah.
and Mrs Chee said the slow part is nice.
of course larh.
French Horn and Euphonium play nice what.
haha. *winks*
and i had to do punishment.
and it's only me doing.
but then Nadhirah and Hafiz join me.
Ish, see so forgetful never put back the band store key back and wake up late for what.
now must do punishment.
ahahah.
after band i went home with Joanne again.
yeah. i love going home with her.
huhu.
and ohh i saw someone
and someone say from the look in my eyes, there seems to be something wrong.
haha. what-the-hell.
okay enough.

tomorrow's Sunday.
the day after is Monday.
waah, so fast.
haha. yeah.
eh, i haven't finish my homeworks.
i am just too lazy.
deng, must wake up oi Fathiah.
EOY is so around the corner.
and i haven't go for my OBS check up yet.
grr. damn it larh.
Dad say school reopen i go Polyclinic myself.
but then i won't be free on Monday and Tuesday.
and the form is due like 2nd day of school reopen.
damn it larh.
and ohh if i were to go for the Bangkok Trip i need to pay $0.
haha. cool huh.
but then i don't know lerh.
i want to keep my $600 for that OBS(overseas) oi.
i really damn want to go for it.
huhu.

' i want to have your company now; just now wasn't enough '

2008-09-05T18:22:00.003+08:00

i went to Mardhiyyah house.
we completed our DnT 3D drawing.
yayness.
in fact we did 2. (:
then we went on YouTube.
and starting to find Camp Rock videos.
heheh.
it's so the nice sia.

we were like crazy searching for videos.
the songs are so nice.
i wanna watch.
but saded, i don't have cable TV.
grr. hais.
i wanna but the disc if it's out.
haha. yeah.
and ohh Nick Jonas is so hot/cute oi.
*winks* :D
and i walk home halfway from Mardhiyyah house.
so that i reach home and it's time to break fast already.
clever huh.
but however i did arrive home like 30 minutes early.
so i immediately on my computer and start downloading songs.
yeah. now i can download already.

holiday are so gonna be over.
i have not completed my homeworks.
i have only done a bit.
and i just remember that we must do a presentation on our Sculpture.
damn it larh.
i have totally forgotten about it.
hais.
so now i must do everything quickly.
alright.
and should i change my skin?
gee. i don't know.

' actually it wasn't suppose to be i care for you,
it was suppose to be i love you and wish you would stay in my life forever. '

2008-09-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

Yesterday Master Plan was alright.
but still no Sofia = less fun.
yeah. no craps to share.
haha
alright, i better get ready for band.
yippee.
haha.
yes i miss band like crazy.
there's gonna be briefing on Bangkok Trip.
i wanna go.
i am gonna beg my parents.
heheh.
alright.
i really got to go.
i'll blog again later aite.
:D

im gonna continue my post.
lols.
alright, so i went for band.
and again people would give me that 'hey, what's that she's carrying' look.
haha. yeah.
i feel like taking out my instrument and show it to them.
and say 'it's just a French Horn people'.
haha.
i walk to school and my back hurts you know.
from 10.30 to 11.45 was briefing on the Bangkok Trip.
it seems exciting but i don't whether i should go.
i want to save that $600 for OBS (overseas).
haha. yeah.
and anyways there's some issue going on in Bangkok now.
and almost everyone in the French Horn not sure whether they going.
ohh well, i think i'll think about it first.
then there was like 1 hour 15 minutes lunch time.
grr. so long for what. haha.
so the Muslim people sat around in the band room and crap yeah.
that's our job you know.
lols.
then there was a short combine.
there's so the many pieces for me to learn.
yeah. this is what happen when you learn a new instrument.
i hope i can play all of the listed pieces.
then we were break up to brass and woodwinds.
and then we were told to go for sectional.
ohh well.
i had fun with my French Horniest.
we kept playing the slow part cause its just so nice.
nyehaha.
then from 4.30-6 was taken by Mrs Gan.
we did some study planning.
and she told us how to study smart.
and the EOY is do the freaking near.
when i look at the schedule she gave i was like
omg. omg. omg.
i want panic can.
yeah.
i haven't start studying.
but never mind its not too late if i start tomorrow.
yep. i hope i can do it yaw.
and it seems so quick to break fast.
haha. yeah.
and yay i drank Coffee Blended Ice.
how much i miss it.
huhu.

alright.
tomorrow i have to start studying.
yeah. really must at least study something.
eh wait no.
i can't study.
i need to go Mardhiyyah house to do the DnT project yaw.
yeah.
and i think i'll do the homeworks with her.
gee. haha.
and there's band on Saturday.
yay? haha.
and i was suppose to go for the OBS checkup in the morning.
how lerh? that's the final decision of my parents.
can i skip band for a while?
haha.

and i think Nick Jonas is the hottest/cutest among the rest.
haha. *winks*
i agree with Adila.
not FarahDF who likes Joe Jonas?
haha.
:D

and what-the-hell.
i think my computer is going wrong.
i lost like a lot of my documents.
and important ones too.
hais.
and my LimeWire also gone?
saded seh.
now i can't download songs.
grr.

' dang. your worsen condition makes me worry more. and i recover, you fall sick. hais. '

2008-09-03T09:12:00.002+08:00

Holidays are so gonna end soon.
hais.
i never manage to study yesterday.
cause i had a fever.
so i spent my day sleeping?
yeah.
i just hate falling sick.
cause when i fall sick, it would be a very bad one.
my temperature has been going up and down.
but yet i still fast you know.
haha. yeah.
but luckily i'm getting better.
at least i can do something now.
lols.
tomorrow have band.
yeah! haha.
and i have been practicing French Horn all this while.
but still my pitching is kinda out.
ohh well.
practice makes perfect.
lols.
okay i don't know what to blog already.
i wanna go bath and get ready to go to school.
but sadly, Sofia not coming.
hais.
and someone also.
hais.
i miss lots of people already.
that's why i hate holidays.
okay enough.

' i waited and waited but still no. and i want you to come; damn your mother. '

2008-09-02T09:51:00.003+08:00

Yesterday;
it was the 1st day of fasting month oi.
haha.
and i went out with Sister.
to lots of places.
we bought some stuffs larh.
and i bought myself Gladiator Sandals.
Sis told me to buy.
saw some familiar humans there.
and ohh i saw Boys Like Girls you know.
somewhere at Orchard.
haha. yeah.
but i am not a fan of them.
and we went home late.
which means we break fast late.
saded rite.
haha.
and i bought myself a muffin from Famous Amos yaw.
haha.
okay i lazy elaborate what happen.
heheh.
and ohhs, thank you sister for treating me.
:DD

Today;
i have to start revising.
since yesterday i never touch a single book.
yeah.
and i have to clean the house also.
and i am bored like seriously.
okay fine.
i don't what to blog.
haha.

and tomorrow i have to go to school for the Games Room Master Plan.
but sadly, Sofia not coming again.
she have NPCC.
hais.
i miss her you know.
all the crap we share.
and i swear if we were to meet, we would talk for hours non-stop.
cause we always have so much things to share.
huhu. :D

and fish.
i can't open the OBS camp form missing pages.
saded seh.
i think my computer something wrong.
haha. lols.
anyone can help me?
text me yaw.
:D

' i always wonder why you answer me late; you never knew how long i wait '

2008-08-31T15:21:00.002+08:00

i wanted to wish that birthday boy at 12am.
but i fell asleep.
grr.
and when i woke up, there's a messages from someone.
and now someone have yet reply.
so must wait until someone come back.
hais. saded.
i make myself breakfast before i went out.
then i went to meet Joanne at like 11am.
we walk around while waiting till 12noon.
then we go and meet the rest of them to celebrate with the birthday boy.
haha.
we then went to his house there.
and bought a cute little cake.
lols.
then we called him down at the playground.
and give him that 'surprise' party.
it was just a mini one.
then we went off to KFC.
after that i went home.
i didn't follow them.
sorry many many.
and now i want to enjoy myself.
i want to play computer like crazy.
and eat like crazy.
cause tomorrow i have to start studying.
and also the start of fasting.
haha.
so yeah.
i want to have fun today.
and i miss someone badly.
but someone's coming back like soon?
i hope.
and i want to go out during the holiday.
i mean study at library or something.
anyone want go with me?
text me.
lols.
:D

and ohh that someone's birthday we celebrated was this guy.
haha. lols.
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY to my dearest DEON Chien Hoe Keng Korkor !
you're my best best kor.
and i love you kor.
and ohh i am older than him, but he's my kor and i'm his mei.
haha. lols.

and ohh this is his cute little cake.
HAHA
:D

' you always know if i am not alright '

2008-08-30T17:04:00.003+08:00

fuck face. i know.

i woke up at 6.30am to reply someone message which was sent yesterday.
and then i was awoken by a message at 7.30am.
till then i accompanied someone till like 9am.
cause someone need to go for something.
and sadedly, someone went off without saying 'bye'.
okay stop it. lols.
and then i can't go back to sleep.
hais.
anyways i have to go for the master plan at 11pm.
so there's no point going back to sleep.
and ohh, sister treat me MacDonald for breakfast.
thank you, big sister. :D
and then i went off to meet the EXCOs and Standing Committee I/C .
not all of them came.
Hui Shi is sick; get well soon aite.
all the standing comm i/c came, except for Song&Dance.
lols.
my dear dear Sofia wasn't here.
hais.
and also Elvin's partner, Hairi.
lols.
and we kinda did a lot of stuffs there.
i don't want mention.
and when school reopens there will be GM
and also the Orientation.
ohh wells.
then we talk like there's no tomorrow while waiting for the rain to stop.
chey. haha.
it's fun hearing the sec 3 experience going for OBS (Philippines).
it make me feel more interested/excited.
i wanna go.
i hope my parents allow.
and we were sharing like a lot of stories.
suddenly i felt bonded between the EXCOs and Standing Committee I/C.
chey! lols.
and we went home at 4pm.
we actually talk like so long.
haha.

now i am very bored.
someone's away for 2 freaking days.
hais. saded.
i think i want go read the first few chapters of Low Kay Hwa books.
i heard its nice.
so i want to give it a try.
LOLS :D

' you worry me when you keep things from me '

2008-08-29T17:23:00.002+08:00

i took a cab to school as i was late to meet Joanne.
and also cause i was carrying some heavy stuffs with me.
and it cost me $3.30.
haha. lols.

and we were like the first few ones in school.
i open the class and ask Joanne to go up the councillor room first.
i did all the last minute stuffs.
i was running up and down.
and i was already sweating before flag raising.
flag raising, i had to hold the class tag.
and for ACES day couple dance, i dance with Hafiz at first and then Zahid.
i had fun, like really fun.
that means i enjoy myself.
huhu.
and so then went back to class for preparation.
basically like everything done.
just some touch-ups.
and we actually start our party late.
cause the teachers came late.
we started playing Musical Chair.
i didn't play, i control the game.
haha.
and ohh, Iskandar won.
then we played cling-cling + balloon burst.
we were really stepping on each others balloons.
and this time, Mrs Pang won.
then it was eating time.
haha. yeah.
i wasn't really eating.
i somehow go remove the decoration first.
and we were lack of time to clean up.
but luckily everyone helped out.
thus we manage to complete them on time.
anyways thank you 2D for that wonderful party.
i love you :D
and i didn't bring my books home.
i dump them in the cupboard.
i only bring Maths, Science and History textbooks.
got back my report book.
i only got 2 A1 and 2 A2.
surprisingly i got A1 for DnT and Literature.
and A2 for Science and Mother Tongue.
i failed my History and Maths for overall.
saded rite.
and i was sitting at the concourse like so long.
cause i have to wait for Amirah.
she took so long for her NPCC stuffs.
and then they waited for Hairi to finish kayak meeting some more.
pathetic.
then she followed me home to put my stuffs.
then we went under my block to eat dessert.
haha. lols.
and off to our primary school.
i saw many people there.
all my old friends.
i hanged out with Amirah till like 5.
them we go home.

and tomorrow have to go for Master Plan.
but saded uhs.
Sofia never come.
she going for Kayaking Expedition.
hais.
but nevermind, i still have Joanne to accompany me.
lols.
and i don't want holiday.
i just hate it.
and Monday is the start of fasting month.
hais.
and there's band during the holiday.
but only one day.
hais.

argh damn it.
i manage to ignore you from yesterday night to today's flag raising.
but after that i can't take it anymore.
you have been approaching me but i ignore.
but then i pity you, so i entertain you.
and now you understand why i am like this.
i have to my dear lil boy.
you wouldn't be able to understand what i feel.
sometimes i just wish i can let go everything easily.
but it's just so fucking difficult.
and it hurts me to see it happening over again.
hais.
argh fuck; tears.

and damn it.
someone gone for 2 days from tomorrow.
very the saddening.

' i am so gonna miss someone badly '

2008-08-28T22:17:00.007+08:00

i look stupid again today.
i just had so many stuffs with me.

i went school early to finish the invitation card and programme sheet.
and ohh thank you very much to those who helped out.
i appreciate it lots.
there wasn't P.E as it was raining.
so we stayed in class and Mr Seow showed us a video.
okey it's boring that i felt asleep.
in fact lots of people did.
Mrs Pang was rushing during Maths.
thus i don't quite understand her.
so it means i have to do self-study during the holiday.
recess i went to look for some teachers.
but all not in. saded.
i don't know why but i think Mdm Norhani lessons weren't that boring.
haha. lol.
we used up our assembly period to cleanup the class.
and the class had some chaos.
haha.
after school i had to rush around.
i had to look for people again. haha.
and there's band.
only lower sec and we were taken by Mrs Chia.
and today my sound sucks like hell.
i can't pitch the right notes.
but i manage to somehow play bar 79 to 91 of Eagle Bend smoothly.
heheh (:
and i left band early for the hall decoration.
but somehow i felt disappointed when i heard what happen..
saddening rite.
all the things had been planned properly.
then had to find new plan.
saded rite and i so pity Joanne and the committee.
and ohh you know what.
i felt very relieve/grateful.
i actually wanted to go into the hall at 4pm.
but luckily i didn't.
phew. GOD still loves me.
haha.
then we stayed till like 6pm to discuss about the new plan.
and ohh we practice dance too.
lols.
after everything i went to bubble tea shop with Joanne.
there we met Audrey, Daphne, Cherry and Jin Yang.
and we talk. lols.
and i arrive home at 8pm.
and my back hurts due to the heavy bag and French Horn.
ohh well, i have to get use to it.
and now i have no idea on how to decorate the class.
all the classes are so freaking nice.
except for ours.
hais. saded.
and tomorrow i have to wake up damn early.
and there's ACES day and TEACHERS' DAY celebration.
yeah! i can't wait.

i hate it when this happens.
i really hate it.
and you just don't how hurt/disappointed i am.
i have been wasting my tears.
argh fuck.
why my this happen over again.
i just hate it cause it make me feel very empty.
i always think that you were always there for me.
but that's all a lie.
you never had once walk alone with your shadow as company.
you still have _________.
argh fuck.
enough i don't want to talk about it anymore.
i never want to care anymore.
i did my first step of ignoring you when you approach me.
i am trying not to reply your message.
argh fuck.
and you make me feel lost.
i don't even have my appetite anymore.
argh damn.

anyways thank you Sofia for being there for me just now.
i love you babe ! :D

' though it hurts me so much, i still have to move on '

2008-08-25T19:11:00.004+08:00

sorry people.
i have been busy with Teachers' Day stuffs.
but soon my job's gonna end.
:D

Sunday i didn't went to do the Sculpture.
but i went out with Sister.
to buy her stuffs.
okay not elaborating.

monday;
i actually reached school on the dot.
haha.
and i was approached by Joanne to substitute for morning duty.
lol.
and i was given 5 packs of cupcakes to sell again.
i got 34/40 for Literature.
my best paper.
History was updating file.
and Mdm Azzah bought a cupcake from me.
due to temptation.
haha.
recess duty was kinda boring.
haha.
Maths was graph again.
i don't understand a single thing.
there's this discussion during MT about last minute studying.
and Hairi kept pointing out to me.
Arfian also.
damn it lorh.
then it was Science.
boredom yaw.
i spent my whole afternoon painting the banner.
with Joanne, Sofia, Ling Hao and some of the EXCOs.
and we make a mess.
especially Joanne, Ling Hao and myself.
the paints just simply can't get off our hand.
grr.

Tuesday
i wanted to go school very early.
but ended up i overslept.
but however i still manage to arrive at 6.40.
Science was still boring to me.
i want go Ms Gan class.
Music we played the songs again.
and Mr Dzul said we would be performing after school.
on Monday, 8/9 with 2C.
it's so like what-the-hell.
hope that me and Jason won't make mistakes.
haha.
Recess duty was fun.
being an i/c for recess is easier than being a standing comm i/c.
lols.
Maths was a new topic.
and i switched off totally.
Art was always the best lesson.
and Mdm Rafilah showed us one video.
i almost teared.
MT was about traditional stuffs.
and i was asked to read.
and Arfian keep disturbing me.
and i felt like going home.
cause i was having a damn bloddy painful cramp that last till i went home.
okay enough.
English lesson was always boring.
got back the paper and i failed.
i got 19/50.
hais. saded.
after school went to do banner again.
and i was running around the school looking for humans in my bad condition.
someone told me not to and ask me to go home.
but i had to do my job.
and i had my lunch with Shireen and Sukainah.
and i can't stop lying due to Aidil(sec 1) acts.
haha.
and i eventually started painting when Sofia came.
haha.
and it started off with the only both of us.
then HafizDj, Khairul and Aizat came.
and we do make a chaos.
they were overly exited with the spray.
and Hafiz eventually make a big mess.
haha. they were very cute.
we finished everything at like 7pm.
and we were like the last ones in school.
and some more Sofia's baby bag was still in the classroom.
luckily there was someone to help.
i went to get myself a cup of bubble tea with Joanne.
and headed home immediately.
i was told off again cause of my painted shirt.
ahh i don't care larhs.
i was too tired to do homework.
but i didn't sleep until someone's doing something.
and then off i doze off to sleep.
in my school uniform.
see how lazy i am.
haha.

Today; Wednesday
someone woke me up late.
i told someone to wake me when someone wake up.
but ended up someone woke me up when someone leaving the house.
grr.
i spent my time before flag raising touching up the Teachers' Day board.
after flag raising there was briefing on ACES day.
yeah. it happens to be on the same day as Teachers' Day celebration.
Maths lessons was free.
Mrs Pang never come to class.
Art was doing 2-point perspective.
it's so the complicated can.
haha.
i spent my recess folding the programme sheet and invitation card.
and ohh thanks to Hairi and Imran for helping me.
now i have to just write the names.
then it was Science.
and we have a pathetic holiday homework.
Mindmap and assessment book.
DnT was doing some research.
me and Mardhiyyah went crazy doing the model on Solidworks.
haha.
and we only have 4 weeks to do the actual product.
i went moody and started tearing a bit after that conversation with someone.
ahh enough.
there was briefing on OBS(local)!
yeah, finally my long dreams have came.
LOL!
i want to go.
i want challenge myself.
i am taking this as my first step to going OBS(overseas).
haha. yeah i hope i can go.
but there's one thing.
i have a phobia of deep water.
hais. i need to overcome them.
i don't care i want to go this OBS.
heheh.
i am going for a check-up as fast as possible.
chey!
after that there was suppose to be History.
but i don't know what happen, everyone went off.
so i went off too. haha.
immediately i went into the councillor room, i broke down.
i called someone and it somehow cheers me up.
thank you very much ehs. (:
but somehow i got scolded for not listening to someone again.
i told you i am stubborn.
and sorry 2D people.
i can't follow you guys to but the stuffs.
i was suppose to clean up the mess at the councillor room.
and there wasn't anyone there to help me at first.
but then Shahir came.
and the Joanne came.
but then we did the Teachers' Day stuffs.
we went home at 6.30 and went to bubble tea shop.
we bought coffee blended ice again.
i am so in love with it.
and then someone scolded me.
cause i never listen to someone.
but i got ask permission, though someone said no.
haha. i don't care.
i am one stubborn girl.

tomorrow got band.
i have to bring French Horn to school.
its very the big you know.
and the Sec 3s won't be coming.
i don't want play French Horn alone.
i need Nadhirah.
and if there's games, i don't want to organize alone.
but i think i'll get the EXCOs help.
heheh.
and right now i have to finish writing the names on the invitation card.
so good night humans out there.

"unless u wan me to walk alone wit my shadow as company"
don't worry i won't let you walk alone.
i hope i won't cause i know i can't bear to.
and i just realize that
we can't ignore/get angry/fed up/saded/dissapointed with each other for long.
haha.

' yeah! long phone calls '

2008-08-24T02:00:00.000+08:00

this pretty flower was drawn by Jowyn.
very nice ritex. :D

and ooh it's so rarely of me to still stay online till now.
yeah very unusual huh.
i had no choice.
but to complete all the Teachers' Day stuffs.
i can only use computer till 4 am.
and tomorrow cannot use already.
that's what mum said.
and cause my sister is working now but not later.
so hell yeah.
i must finish them all up no matter what.
and i think i finish them all up already yah.
the invitation card designs and the programme sheet.
all done.
just need to show them to Ms Lim on Monday.
actually suppose to print out.
but then my printer no ink.
very the saddening.
and sometimes i hate my internet.
it just lags suddenly.
stupid M1 Vodafone.
haha.

and ohh that someone horr.
i don't know what to say liao.
haha.
tell you to sleep don't want.
trust me. you won't lose much.
okay enough.
i want go sleep.
tired nia.
one whole day busy.
hahah.
maybe later i blog again.
after i came back finishing my sculpture with Jiayi.
byes.
:DDD

' i thought you would never reply. haha '

2008-08-23T18:58:00.002+08:00

i love band day by day.
now i think i like Mrs Chee more.
and i hate it a lot.
it has been raining the whole day.
and its very the cold.
i had my tutoring.
it wasn't that bad.
and the tutor doesn't know i am new in French Horn.
haha.
and i hate playing with just mouthpiece.
cause i can't buzz properly.
i had lunch with my new section.
haha.
we were very noisy you know.
combine was not boring.
we went through the whole song.
'Eagle Bend' is a damn nice piece.
i am in love with the bar 79 to 91.
heheh.
but i still can't pitch the notes properly.
i am so used to trumpet pitching.
and sometimes i press trumpet fingerings too.
haish.
i really need to buck up.
i don't have much time left.
soon i have to put band aside.
and concentrate on EOY.
chey. haha.
but i seriously need to pass my EOY very well.
cause my CT sucks like hell.
i already fail 2 subjects.
and left 2 more paper not returned.
English and Literature.
and i very sure i fail my English.
the main paper.
@#$%^&*! damn.
and ohhs thanks to Nadhirah/my section leader for always helping me.
heheheh.
after band i went to do the sculpture with Jiayi.
until like 6pm.
and when i was walking home, people were all staring at me.
cause i was carrying a French Horn(in case) in a backpack way.
i know i look funny like seriously.
but i had no choice but to carry it like a backpack.
as it was raining.
and i have been walking in the rain like everyday.
but still i never fall sick.
and now i have to complete the programme sheet.
and i have yet done the invitation card.
anyone with printer can help?
:D

why the hell must you jumpstyle in the rain and hurt yourself.
very clever huh.
tomorrow you have something on some more.
hais.
now you made me worry more.
ahh damn.
stop it fathiah.
i have to stop caring about you.
i must.
but i know i can't do it.

'i want you to always be with me'

2008-08-22T19:56:00.002+08:00

okay i think i want blog.
haha. i need a break from all those stuffs.

Monday
i had traffic duty.
but my dearly beloved i/c was not there.
she's sick after her kayaking.
i don't really remember what happen.
i know lessons were boring.
Ms Maslinda is back.
and Mdm Azzah gave us brownies.
but sadedly i was fasting.
however she told me to bring a piece home.
haha.
Science was on sex topic.
and as usual the class love it larh.
Maths was quadric graphs.
i hate it so much.
Mother Tongue was super boring.
i remember i didn't went home straight.
i loiter under the block with Amirah.
and she called her abang using my fone.
haha.

Tuesday
Traffic duty was better cause there's Sofia.
haha.
Lessons are the longest today.
i hate it.
cause it's so boring.
and we always learn the same thing over again.
especially Maths.
and i really can't study in this class condition.
Music lesson is getting more interesting.
i somehow get told off in Malay class.
teacher ask the guys to keep their cube away.
then i was folding a paper larh.
then she told me to keep it.
cause she thought i was playing cube.
what-the-hell.
i somehow got annoyed.
and ohh i got 42/50 for my Malay paper oi.
happy oi. haha.
after school me and Jiayi discuss on our Sculpture.
then we go to basketball court.
but i left at 5.30pm.
home then sleep.
and woke up at 7pm to break fast.
heheh.

Wednesday
Maths was again draft.
Art was the one-point test.
i totally struggle on the shelf which cost 20 marks.
and actually Mdm Rafilah had thought us the day before.
but well i am so short term memory.
so too bad for me. saded.
i did recess duty as usual but i never eat larhs.
Science was free period as Mdm Norhani on course.
DnT was the last lesson of Solidworks.
and so there's a test.
and we receive a CD of our own.
so we can try doing it at home.
haha.
and Mr Asta said Mardhiyyah's and mine's assignment was not handed in.
then we were like @#$%^&*!
we handed it in lorh.
and my computer go ask for trouble.
i wanted to hand in the asssignment.
but it went wrong.
damn it.
after school i stayed in class for a while with the Malay peeps.
then home and sleep.
and woke up at 7pm to break fast.
and do the Teachers' Day stuffs.
hais.

Thursday
first time ever i arrived later than my reporting time for duty.
i reported at 6.45 instead of 6.30.
sorry people.
P.E lesson was DOWN BY THE LAKE dance.
i like. haha.
i partnered with Zahid.
cause no more people left.
but the others all partner same sex.
and ohh we did a great job you know.
we actually finish teaching like 3/4 of the song.
haha.
i got my Maths paper.
i scored 8/50.
first time ever i fail Maths so badly.
and i am one of the lowest in the whole class/level.
great huh.
i used up my recess time to meet Ms Lim on the Teachers' Day.
and i actually approached Hairi to accompany me.
cause i scared. haha.
but anyways he need to see her too on the MOE interview.
so yeah. coincidence. lol.
and i approach Mdm Rafilah on the paints.
then she gives me lots of ideas instead of using paints.
and i became more confuse.
then had 2 hours of lesson with Mdm Norhani.
boredom.
there was no assembly.
but there's this enrichment by Adam Khoo.
the sec 2 express was in the hall.
very pathetic.
before band started i went crazy looking for Mr Asta.
haha.
but luckily there's Hairi to help us hand in the assignment.
thank you small boy that never knows anything.
haha. i love calling him that.
and there's band.
brass and woodwinds separated into the classes.
and ohh i changed to French Horn people.
sorry Trumpeters.
i was only helping the band.
i am not a betrayer.
i still love my trumpeters though.
and you know it's very hard to pitch on the French Horn.
and i had to play the 1st part some more.
and so i really need to learn my fingerings and pitching.
ohh well, wish me luck. heheh.
and today Mrs Chee totally help us lots.
anyways French Horn do have some nice parts.
heheh.
went home with Atiqah and then break fast.
haha.
and i did a little bit of the Teachers' Day stuffs again.
but halfway through my sister came back.
hais.

Today; Friday
last day of traffic duty.
like finally duty's over after 3 weeks straight.
tiring you know to wake up early.
haha. but i'll miss the time spend with Sofia. :D
we were suppose to get our English paper back.
but well the HOD haven't check finish.
hais. very the saddening.
Malay class; teacher showed the project we did.
and my group was the first.
and i didn't know that there was so many spelling mistakes/craps.
and each time there was, everyone will turn at me.
crap seh.
in fact, every group does this mistakes.
haha.
recess duty i was lost.
i can't find Joanne for the SC room key and i forgot to meet Ms Lim.
stupid Fathiah.
History paper i fail.
yes, i got 15/40.
hais.
very saded seh.
my A1 which i used to have is gone.
i love my Science.
the only paper i scored well; besides Malay.
i got 38.5/50.
it's not that bad.
so yeah it's proven that i am good at Science.
haha.
and Ms Gan is the bestest teacher you know.
the class was so chaotic but she don't mind at all.
unlike my current Science teacher.
after school we were held by Mr Adnan(spelling?)
over some minor issues.
and that held us back form the Malay Oral somehow.
yes there was oral for the girls.
and before the oral starts, me and Atikah was already scared.
haha.
we were under Ms Alinah.
i was one of the last one tested.
very the saddening.
and ohh the topic is kinda alright.
it's about CIP, which we were taught before.
heheheh.
good luck to the boys aites for your oral.
and then i practiced with Nadhirah, Azlin and Aini.
halfway through practice went out with Joanne to buy Teachers' day stuffs.
and then we continued practicing.
haha. yeah.
and i am loving my French Horn very much.
the sound is super duper sexy.
and i waited to Amirah till like 7 +pm.
see i so good.
and before that i went to the canteen.
and ended up having a chat with Hairi/Imran.
haha.

right now i should be doing the Teachers' day stuffs.
but well i am just to tired and lazy.
haha. yeah.
but i had no choice and still do it.
ohh well.
and i have to seriously complete the invitation card, programme sheet and banner.
all by Tuesday latest.
and i won't be doing it alone larh.
cause i have some help from my wonderful SC mates.
heheh.
and ohh there's band tomorrow.
and it will be my first tutoring lesson in French Horn.
ohh well, wish me luck.
and i just realise that the post is long.
ohh well. who cares.

i tried doing so, but i always fail.
and you are making it harder for me to do so.
i told you to not talk to me.
and i told myself to not talk to you.
but no matter what, we'll ended up chatting.
and you're the one who always started it.
hais. very the saded.
so right now i don't know what else to do.
and my life is not as bright as yours.
ohh well.
and shit, i miss small little boy already.
damn.

' how much i love it '

2008-08-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

i have lots of stuffs to be done.
Lots of Teachers' Day stuffs.
i hope i can do everything on time and correctly.
i'll blog after everything is done.
sorry people.

and someone, thank you for your help always.
though you weren't doing anything, i pull you in this too.
haha. sorry aites.
and i am sorry if i was so different this few days.
i don't know why.
but i will figure out with your help.
tyvm & ily (:

2008-08-17T13:20:00.005+08:00

i am very bored indeed.
in fact let's say my life is boring.
i eventually slept early yesterday cause someone is not there to accompany me.
i receive a message at 12am.
but i am lazy to reply that someone.
cause i know it's sure a message telling me someone's back from overseas.
haha. so i replied at 7.30am.
and i woke up early cause i accompany someone while someone's on the way.
from 7.30am to 9.30am.
that's 2 hours. haha.
and then i went back to sleep.
yeah. i am a lazy bum.
i woke up again at 12pm.
and now i don't know what to do.
someone's not here till night.
i think i am changing my skin.
cause i don't think this one fits me.
i have been editing pictures.
even the old ones.
i have wash my school shoes.
i am lazy to revise my studies.
cause i need a break after CT.
besides that, there's no homework.
i really want to go out and have fun.
but i don't know who to go out with.
i want to go out with friends.
but life isn't the same anymore, i guess.
very the saddening.
and yeah! tomorrow have traffic duty.
me and Sofia favorite.
stand there and talk-talk.
haha.

' I've tried over again, yet i fail and now i know i can't do without it. '

2008-08-16T16:38:00.004+08:00

BAND day.
haha.
i had fun no matter what.
cause i have a best partner, Azura.
and we always disturb the cute boy name Zhi Hao.
haha.
and i am in love with the piece 'Eagles Bend'.
so nice lorh.
especially the trumpet parts.
come on trumpet 3, we can do it.
haha.
at least it's so way better than 'IVANHOE'.
that piece is so like wth.
like seriously.
me and Azura was so lost when side reading.
haha.
tutoring me with Miss Yip.
she's kinda funny.
and she actually a good tutor though.
and lunch with Nadhirah, Aini and Azura.
we were rushing to KFC; scared a lot of people.
haha.
combine was by Wen Xiang sir again.
cause Mrs Chee never come.
and i really damn want improve my sound/tone.
it sucks like hell.
and Mrs Chee hasn't been coming.
so i don't know whether i am still going to French Horn.
after band meet NAZHIIFAH!
hafiz force me too.
aww how much i miss her.
but i didn't talk.
cause i let her spent time with her clique.
and i was talking on the phone with someone.
huhu.
thanks for the company yaw.
haha.
and i don't know what to do already.
rot at home.
i want to go out with friends but life is not like last time.
saded.
and i am so bored.
someone's overseas.

i am so worrying for tomorrow.
not myself but someone.
damn larh.
people, if anything happens tell me horr.
and you horr.
i don't know what to say to you already.

hais.
just please recover soon.
and don't make me worry.
and i know you can't bear to see me like this.
i am alright.
and you know i don't want let you suffer with me.
but remember i am always there for you.
and i know you are always there for me too.

' can i have it everyday? '

2008-08-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Thursday

one day left.

and soon Common Test is over.

haha.
Morning Duty was without Sofia.
She went for the Asian Tennis thing.
saded seh no her.
and i had to find substitutes like last minute.
and mostly people all don't want do larh.
yeah.
being an I/C is not an easy job sometimes.
and as i promised Azlin i would do my job smoothly without her around,
there it goes, i did my job without them.
haha. lol.
Mother Tongue paper; not that hard.
except for the comprehension.
yea i always suck at it.
and i spent my time wisely on this paper.
i slept at the very last 10 minutes only.
haha.
Maths lesson, i wasn't paying attention.
i was having last minute revision on History.
i spent my recess measuring the backdrop.
thank you Joel and Hairi.
History paper; i forgot all the information when i got the paper.
i guess i was panicking. that's why uh.
and i think i answer the source-based questions in a different way.
cause i forgot the way Mdm Azzah had taught.
and i didn't complete the paper.
which cost me 10-12 marks.
ohh well.
i think i can't get A1 already, like i always do.

and ohh that was yesterday post.
i had no time to publish.
haha.

and ohh yesterday night i went to Jurong Point with sister.
she want buy things.
and so i went to get someone's present too.
so i had no time to study.
like saded.
i slept at 1am and woke up at 4am.
like woah.

Friday
great common test is over.
but damn it lorh.
i confirm fail lots of subjects.
i hate Maths like seriously.
it's the hardest paper i had ever done.
grr.
i am so gonna fail the paper.
hais. saded.
and Mardhiyyah cheer up.
its not the end alright.
Science paper was actually not quite bad.
i spent all my time on it.
and just the last 10 minutes to rest.
haha.
the last minute revision was worth it actually.
and although i did write some craps too, i think this is my best paper.
then had Science lesson again.
like so pathetic.
i got 12/20 for my practical test.
just as expected.
alah, who cares.
and Uzair was very excited over the activity just now.
haha.
Sec 2s had self-practice.
i practice with Atiqah at the parade ground there.
and then came along Sisca, Si Ying and Haziq.
and ohh the song 'Chantheys' is nice can.
but i still love 'Flying High'.
nyehaha.
and ohh we played 'Into The Joy Of Spring'.
and we did some drills too.
okay not me, but them.
and i waited for the NPCC to end.
thank you Si Ying for your company.
then me and Amirah hang out till 8.30.
haha. yeah.

and ohh 14 August.
it's SOFIA aini's birthday.
she's one great friend.
i gave her that little gift down there.
ok fine not only me.
together with Hairi larh.
haha.
and ohh i actually wrote a long letter to her.
this time it's just me alone.
and a quarter of the page was the birthday wish from us.
haha.
I LOVE HER ALRIGHT !
remember that we'll always love you; your cutest juniors (:

i was worried like hell you know.

i gave up on you.
you never want to listen to me.
go ahead.
you still have the others to care for you.
losing me won't give you much lost.
indeed isn't it better.
i know she means more to you.
and you just don't know how much she cares and loves you.
indeed i think its much more than i do .
and i know you were messaging her always.
ok fathiah stop it.
and yet again i feel hurt/dissapointed.
and tell yourself to ignore me then move on.

' you just don't know how much i do '

2008-08-13T14:46:00.003+08:00

The Clay Marble is so nice can.
i manage to complete reading it yesterday night.
and it does me good you know.
cause i manage to do my Literature paper quite well i think.
and i think i wrote an essay for the 10 marks question.
haha.
English paper.
i screwed it all up.
like totally.
i am so going to fail.
congrats Fathiah !
i didn't complete my summary which cost me 17 marks.
i only wrote a few pathetic lines.
i lost 10 marks from the comprehension and vocabulary.
i didn't complete it too.
and for the last pathetic 1 minute, i did my close passage.
i didn't even get a chance to check my work.
there it goes.
i just flung my English like that.
hais.

and i have not yet measure the backdrop.
and i have not yet combine the ideas for the backdrop.
and i have done 90% of the Programme Sheet.
just need Hui Shi to pass me the agenda.
and next job to be done is decorating the invitation card.
i think i am so going to use Jowyn's beautiful design.
seriously, it's very nice.
and thank you June for drawing the 'people'.
very cute lorh you draw.
and my dear Liaison peeps, I'll have to get some of your help soon.
sorry if you are called to help.
and right now i have to start studying for History.
i love History and i don't think i would fail.
huhu.
and tomorrow is someone's birthday.
i have no time to buy her things.
i'll think i'll owe her first.
haha.

' i am still feeling disappointed with you '

2008-08-12T17:28:00.002+08:00

i love Secondhand Serenade.
the songs are so nice and cool.
and i think i have like downloaded the whole album.
huhu. best.

Morning duty, i reported somehow late.
sorry people.
sometimes I/C have to be late too. :D
but i prefer traffic duty lorh.
and i really don't pay attention in class nowadays.
i don't know why.
maybe cause of influence by others.
lol.
Science lessons are always boring.
Music was fun.
played 'Rasa Sayang' and 'Chan Mali Chan'.
and for 'Chan Mali Chan', there's lots of 6 (which means i have to shake).
Recess duty, i wasn't really doing it.
i went to find ideas for backdrop somehow. O.o
Maths was all revising.
and ohh there's quiz.
and my group really screwed all of them up.
haha.
Art is always fun.
and i paired up with Jia Yi for the Sculpture.
2 brains are better than 1 you know.
huhu.
Mother Tongue was bored.
discuss about the class test.
and ohh i got 31.5/50.
that's bad actually.
and then we had the briefing for the don't know what learning workshop.
haha. i hate.
English, Mdm Norhani absent.
good.
but half a period we had Maths.
and ohh i scored 20/25 for my test.
woohoo. :D
and after school i stayed in class for a while.
i wanted to decorate the noticeboard.
but i can't do anything cause i never bring anything.
and i haven't measure the backdrop.
cause the hall was locked.
shit.
and i haven't finish the backdrop design too.
hais.
and anyways, thanks Jowyn for your design.
but it's rather hard to transfer it in the banner.
but it's okay.
i might use it as the invitation card design.
heheh. :D

and tomorrow is the start of Common Test.
argh damn it.
and it's English and Literature.
i don't care about English.
but i am so worry for Literature.
cause i have not complete reading The Clay Marble.
and i don't understand a single thing since i started reading.
so i guess i have to re-read again.
hais.
i just think that i will fail my Literature.
like seriously.

and you really worry me like hell.
my lil boy, hurting yourself is so serious.
especially when it's like make u can't move.
and you never inform your parents till i told you to.
and it was night then, though you was hurt like in the afternoon.
hais.
please don't do that again.
you know right i can't see you this way.
and promise me you won't get to rough activities till you recover.
though you have to.
huhu.
and i don't know why, i somehow felt disappointed in you.

' your call; how much i miss them '

2008-08-11T14:55:00.004+08:00

i know the edit is cheapo.
but who cares.
and the picture is not completed.
we miss Amni out.

today's Monday.
a holiday.
but my holiday is so not like one.
i have lots of thing to be done.
and i have only started studying History.
which means i still have Maths, Science and Literature.
how pathetic.

and right now i am completing the Teachers' Day proposal.
i hope my designs don't suck.
wish me luck.
and i so want chocolates right now.
cause i am stress up with works.
i need a rest i guess.
like what someone said.
but i can't.
cause there's plenty of things to be done.
i hope i can finish them up.
and i heard about Arfian.
read his blog to know what happened.
and i pity him.
and right now i am helping him too.
and sometimes i want to be like him.
so that i can get someone out of my life. (maybe?)
and omfg, i am so afraid my bill will burst.

and ohh here's a newly edited picture of the trumpeters.
the first one is use Photoscape.
and this one is use Picnik.
:D

' when you tell me that you love me '

2008-08-10T12:04:00.004+08:00

i really need to stick my butt on the chair and start studying.
gosh.
i have this lazy attitude especially when it comes to study.
and i need to get rid of it.
like so seriously.
and hell yeah.
my room is still in a mess.
i wasted 24 hours yesterday.
doing meaningless stuff.
and parents are always nagging at me for not cleaning my room.
but i am so lazy.
cause each time i clean it, my irritating brothers will make a mess again.
and who get blame/must clean it? me.
how pathetic.
i think i have to start doing something now.
wish me luck people.
bath/wash shoes/clean room/study.
i really hope i can finish them up.
and i am less bored/happy?
cause someone is finally back.
huhu.

' should i really get over it? '

2008-08-09T15:33:00.004+08:00

Happy 43th Birthday Singapore!

i am so bored.
i am lazy to get off my bed just now.
i woke up at 12.30 pm.
i want to sleep again.
i am lazy to clean my room.
i am lazy to study.
i am lazy to wash my school shoes.
i hate my trumpet; it sound so wrong.
i am enjoying chocolates; been eating a lot.
i am sure i will gain weight.
i am lazy to exercise.
i am starting to miss someone.
i want chat with someone.
i know i can't; someone taking a day off.
i want to go out with friends.
i miss old times.
i don't want my phone bill to burst.
i have to cut down on messages.
i know i can't do it.
i don't want to fail Common Test.
i know i will fail though.
i am dead.
i forgot to measure the backdrop.
i have no idea what to do for the Teacher's Day backdrop.
i had just finish my last chocolate; damn it.
i don't know what to blog already.

i feel empty without your appearance

2008-08-08T19:37:00.009+08:00

those lovely gifts. tyvm. (:

my dearest Secretary, Shaffiqa ! :D

Sisca ! :D

my EXCOs ! :D

my bestest/shuai kor !

assistant Band Major & Drill i/c ! :D

my cute section leader, JASMINE ! :D

she's my first friend in band :D

i love her okay ! :D

Farah Dina Farhanis ! :D

she's full of expressions. :D

my assistant secretary/vice-chairman ! :D

Joanne & Jing Lan ! :D

my dearest Secretaries :D

my assistant Drum Major ! :D

my DRUM MAJOR ! :D

and the rest of pictures not with me.
i will get them soon.
especially my section photo and welfare photo.
i love you guys a lot!

i am so in heaven.
haha.
enjoying the chocolates/cookies given.

National Day Celebration.
i didn't get to watch the Master Parade!
saded seh.
stupid traffic duty lorh.
hais.
after that go join the other SCs.
and Mr Thomas called me up.
at first i thought he wanted to scold me.
but actually he wanted me to photocopy and past something to his wife.
haha.
scare me.
and we got the National Day 'token'.
i took green.
lols.
in class super boring.
some lame activities.
seriously.
then got performance.
okay larh.
but the sing along session boring.
yeah.
and we were released late.
which drag the band graduation.
then we were all rushing to get ready for the event lorh.
but luckily we manage it.
and the graduation party was indeed a success.
i had fun oi.
cause of the great people around me.
but i got pissed of sometimes when people don't want listen to instructions.
okay enough.
and the video bring lots of memories back.
i think that i like spend lots of time with this batch of seniors.
as i joined main band since sec 1 mah.
they are really great and wonderful seniors.
seriously.
and the video makes me tears.
cause i don't want them to go.
they are just the best seniors.
but i think i'll tear more next year.
cause that batch of seniors are whom nurture me.
especially my welfare officers.
i love them a lot okay.
and thanks for the gifts.
thank you very much people.
and i will work hard alright.
after band graduation went to bubble tea shop with Joanne.
yeah.
and i drank 2 cups of ice blended.
cool huh.

and i have to start studying.
Common Test is so next week.
and i mustn't fail.
or my parents will scold me.
3 days of holiday.
mugging at home.
studying/cleaning/practicing.
and ohh yah.
doing my teacher's day proposal.
haha.
and Mdm Rafilah wire's money is with me.
$40 sia.
i hope i won't lost it.

and about that passer-by:
thank you people for helping me.
i am lazy to entertain this type people.
i have got better stuffs to do.
yea people my think that i am bad.
in fact everyone thinks i am bad at first.
but when they got to know me better,
they know the real stuffs.
and not listen to those nonsense made by others.
and don't tell me that you never talk about people before.
everyone did that.
don't try to act that you are so good.
no one is such a good human in life.
and i don't think that i am that bad.
i am a capable person here.
that's why i am a Student Councillor.
and i am not a Student Councillor who did nothing.
i play an important role in Student Council.
don't believe you can ask the EXCOs and the Standing Commitee I/Cs.
and i am not boasting here.
in fact i believe that i am a capable person.
that's why i am a leader.
and being a leader is not easy.
especially when i am in my CCA too.
and i know people hate me.
cause they listen to others.
and not get to know me better.
but i still have those wonderful peeps.
which know me better than you do here.
and come on.
you said you're from 2D.
you should know me better.
got grudge with me is it?
come talk to me personally.
by 'spamming' my blog.
you're making yourself stupid.

' your the attraction my dear cute little boy '

2008-08-07T16:10:00.003+08:00

cross country.
fun + tired.
i was actually having runny nose.
but after the ran it heals.
lol.
i ran with Si Ying.
okay let's not say ran.
jog/walk.
haha.
but still we completed it.
haha.
and Gavin and gang was sending song from my phone all the way.
so i sat there doing nothing.
saded.
so i make myself full with water.
and i ate lots of chocolates today.
lol.
i didn't expect it to happen.
i broke down again.
like suddenly.
i can't control it anymore.
so there it goes.
and thank you to those people who comfort me.
i appreciate it lots.
especially Sofia!
thank you very much.
she even called me.
i love you babe.
and also thanks for the advice people.
i didn't went home straight.
i talk to someone and friend.
yeah.
i had to do so.
and sorry if i make you guys stay longer.
huhu.
after that i go fetch my brother.
but i didn't went home with him.
i went home with Ming Sian.
thank you for sending me home.
and the moment i reach home, i slept.
tired mah.
but i was awoken by sms/call.
huhu.
can i say i had fun? O.o

right now i should be studying.
Common Test is so next week.
but i was told to rest.
so i listen.
see i so good.
and i love it a lot.
that morning call was best, 3 am.
can do it again.
huhu.
and tomorrow is Band Graduation.
i have yet do something for the seniors.
i hope it will turn out well.

; i don't know what's my next move

2008-08-06T21:35:00.004+08:00

i can't play computer nowadays.
saded.

Monday
traffic duty; best best best.
cause i have a great Head i/c, Sofia. :D
lessons was per normal.
and i was pissed off with somebody.
not a need to elaborate.
and after school had GM.
me and Sofia was always talking.
and i had to share withe the SCs about the SHINE program.
my first time oi.
haha.
then after GM loiter around with Sofia, Hairi, Ming Sian, Joanne and Sukainah.
it was fun oi.
cause they are great people.

Tuesday
didn't go English lesson.
as got Sculpture Walk.
best bodoh.
i seriously had fun.
cause there's a great peeps of 2D.
huhu.
but the number 16-27 weren't with us.
they belong to another group.
saded.
and we had 3 shots with Mdm Rafilah cool camera.
haha.
she's really a funny+cute teacher.
i enjoyed her lessons.
after that i went home if not wrong.
haha.
i stm (short term memory).

Today; Wednesday
i went to school like very early, 6.15.
cause i left my graph paper in school.
cannot do homework.
haha.
Maths was crazy.
haha.
we had to do questions in like given time.
and my group was kanchong.
cause we want win.
but hell, it was all Algebra.
i suck at it.
Art was fun oi.
i can't wait to do my sculpture.
huhu.
Science practical, i screwed it up like hell.
i am 100% sure i'll fail.
ahh who cares.
DnT was getting more fun and cool.
haha.
and i decorated the noticeboard together with Mardhiyyah and Nurul.
i have been working on it like for days.
see i am so good.
haha.
but it's not completed yet.
no time finish cause got Solidworks.
and thank you someone for accompanying me after they went home.
and sorry i never accompany you.
i had to go home.
lol.
and 2B don't worry alright.
sooner or later you will get back the lost items.
at night i went out with Atiqah to find her baking stuffs.
haha.

and tomorrow's cross country.
should i run.
and yeah, i got company tomorrow.
Atiqah and Haffeeq.
so not going alone.
and seriously, i don't know where to go after that.
hais.
i miss old times.
and Friday is Eve of National Day/Band Graduation.
i hope it would be a fun day.

this week, best best best.
like seriously.
haha.
cause i love having that someone company.
huhu.
thank you very much.
and sorry i accidentally did that just now.
haha.
i can't stop laughing/thinking about it.

PEOPLE, i change my number (might be temporarily). so approach me for my new number. thank you very much. (:

2008-08-03T16:56:00.003+08:00

Asian Shooting Competition, i love my Student Council

my life seems wrong now.
i just don't understand people nowadays.
they don't listen to the truth,
but they listen to rumors.
how crap is that.
i really don't understand them.
and i want to have a big brother.
cause they understand better compare to a big sister.
i don't know where Abang Azreen now.
i guess he has been busy.
and is it wrong to love or be love?
some people just don't understand.
i believe it occurs to everyone in life.
everyone wants to be in love.
i really don't understand people nowadays.
they always think what others did are wrong.
but what they did is right.
then they start spreading wrong information about the person.
hais.
i want my old life back.
i want my old friends back.
i want my happiness back.
i want my rights back.

and to that Chinese girl who posted in her blog before me,
shut your mouth up.
its not call catching attention bodoh.
you don't know the real reason to it.
then shut up can.
your just jealous i am close to him ritex.
you think it's so easy.
come be in my shoes and you'll understand how complicated my life is.
so please shut your mouth if you don't know the truth.
and now then you know a lot people are after him.
noob.

' i have to do it again. i am sorry. '

2008-08-02T18:58:00.002+08:00

Saturday = band.
yeah.
ran around the school 1 round + netball court 3 rounds.
cool huh.
and i was sweating like hell.
and i hate doing pumping.
cause my shoe will come off one.
grr.
there was tutoring by Ms Yip.
today's my 1st lesson when others is 2nd.
she was nice and kinda fun lorh.
and i was asked to play.
she said my sound is like thin when playing high notes.
i need more air support to make a warmer sound.
i'll improve on that alright.
and she really teach us into detail.
good lorh.
and a lot of seniors came can say.
i don't know why.
maybe cause Mrs Chee never come.
lol.
lunch was with Azura.
we bought cup noodles and bubble tea.
then ate in school.
combine was taken by seniors.
as Mrs Chee never come.
then Jeremy Sir take us for first time also.
he good lerh.
and Wen Xiang Sir words make sense.
and Flying High really is tough song.
we have to really work hard.
come lets' work hard to achieve a Gold people.
let's just not speak only.
prove it to them by actions.
i believe everyone can do it.
if everyone single one of us do their best,
then it would be a success.
and i think i am getting myself a tuner + metronome.
cause i want to be a better player.
huhu.
after band go library with Azlin, Mandy, Farhan, Kai Sheng, Gwendolyn.
do a bit of the slideshow for graduation.
then someone called me.
but not long.
haha.
and what Farhan&Kai Seng said was true.
maybe one day we could talk to them yah.
then i take bus home with Mandy.
we talk like a lot can say.
all about band.
then at school bus stop meet the seniors all.
and we talk a bit about band again.
yeah.
i wish the band will improve and be original.
ohh please.
we are JVCB.
and we are unique right.
(:

i actually survive my night ignoring.
huhu.
message me, i don't care.
haha.
but i fail to go on longer.
cause i accidentally go call someone.
then someone call me back.
and we ended up talking.
grr.
yes i am not alright.
my head hurts and i am still disappointed.
don't have to care can.
so yeah i am not picking up calls/messages,
anymore.
huhu (:

2008-08-01T18:46:00.003+08:00

gosh. it have been a week since i blog.
i am a busy girl.
huhu (:

Monday
wait. i don't remember what happen.
ohh yah.
had English trail.
yeah.
my station was with Kendra.
fun bodoh.
lol.
then after that hang out with Sofia, Joanne, Ming Sian and Hairi.

Tuesday
Boring lessons.
yeah.
recess went to collect the blazer.
lol.
after school had rehearsal for the Asian Shooting Competition.
fun bodoh.
haha.
but not everyone came.
the 2A and 2C went for Sculpture Walk.
saded.
and i keep changing my duty.
first i was the VIP Usher, then to Prize Giver, then to Door Usher.
what the hell.
but never mind.
Leaders should be able to adapt to changes fast.
then i forgotten what happen.
haha.

Wednesday
i was late.
i meant i meet up with someone late,
alright fine.
so yeah we reported to Gold Room.
and get ready.
everyone looks handsome and pretty in blazers.
lol.
and we were excited for the event.
or lets say its me.
huhu.
but its not my luck.
i actually fell twice.
what-the-hell lorh.
i know larh you guys must be laughing.
and i injured myself.
and cause of that, i change duty again.
to cutlery.
diao.
cause they afraid of my safety.
and thank you Ignatius for your generous care.
what a bad English.
haha.
and sorry Hui Shi for making your align skirt into that condition.
the whole event went well.
great job people.
and then we had a feast?
haha.
yeah the food was nice.
and i took some photos.
i'll update later.
haha.
and i want the whole group photo lerh.
it's with Ms Lim.
grr.
and i slept on the way back.
though the SCs were very noisy.
and that Hairi and Jun Ren was disturbing me.
think i don't know uh.
haha.
and then we ended up coming back school early.
then had to go lesson.
damn it.
but lucky it's DnT.
so can slack.
haha.
then after school was suppose to go bubble tea shop with Shireen.
but i had no idea where she went.
haha.
so i was there alone.
no wait with someone under the block.
that's where the 'war' start.
and i broke down like hell.
i am so sorry if i make you angry.
very sorry.
and so someone had to went home.
i stayed with Atiqah, Haffeq and Hilary (new friend).
then home.
and sleep again.

Thursday
3 hours of free period bodoh.
Mdm Norhani never come.
good siol.
and today i don't have my handphone with me.
it's with someone.
yeah, i wanted to live without phone.
but i started to miss it already before school ends.
but i endured.
huhu.
and then it was band.
basically we didn't play.
the instructors were thinking of changing the choice piece.
no way man.
i love FLYING HIGH.
get it?
and Mrs Chee was asking the welfare officers on the graduation party.
seriously, i know nothing.
and we had games day.
2 hours of fun.
yea.
and i never fail to fall/push during games.
grr,
then there was one time i feel down.
its like so cool can.
i rolled like 2-3 times on the parade ground and my head bang on the floor.
cool but there was no bleeding.
damn.
then me and Azura was crazy.
haha.
we fought over the ball.
and we ended up rolling on the grass.
and Azura go give my shoe to the kayakers.
grr.
i had lots of fun with my bandmates.
me and Deon went to ask Mrs Chee about the French Horn.
she said she'll reconfirm again.
then i went to bubble tea shop with Joanne and Sisca.
we chatted till like 7.30 pm.
haha.
and i forgot to hand the Duty Rooster to Vania.
hais.
i was frustrated with someone.
i call my phone billion times.
never pick up.
damn.
so i call someone phone instead.
and chatted like for 1 hour.
cool; can do it again?

Friday
i was looking forward for my phone.
yea, i miss it.
but i was saded when someone give my phone back.
so i don't want take it.
cause the battery flat like hell.
as someone never turn off the bluetooth.
grr.
i wonder what someone did to my phone.
haha.
me and Sofia handed in our proposal already.
like finally.
English was bored; comprehension.
MT was emo; cause i didn't get to borrow the phone.
History was fun; cause Mdm Azzah is fun.
Science was interesting; cause the topic was fun.
and my phone was returned back to me.
as someone had to go out of school.
after school i rushed home to charge my phone.
all thanks to someone.
then i go eat lunch with Mardhiyyah and Nurul.
actually we decided to make design for the class board.
but don't know what happen, we ended going to band.
and i practiced trumpet / french horn.
it was so cool and fun.
then to bubble tea shop with Atiqah.
then back to school.
then back to bubble tea shop again.
then home.

tomorrow there's band.
there would be tutoring.
i hope the tutor is fun.
and i will be staying in trumpet for the mean time.
and i hope we'll stick to Flying High.
cause i am in love with trumpet part.
but if i go French Horn, then saded.
and common test is like coming.
i haven't start a single thing.
and cross country today was postponed to 7 August.
which affects our dance during P.E lesson.
grrr.
but yeah, there won't be band too.
and 8 August is band graduation party.
i hope it will be fun.

i believe you have read the story in my handphone.
the 15-20 pages essay which i spend my night on it.
sorry.
now you know everything.
i hope it won't change a thing k.
cause i never want to lose you.
you brighten my life.
and i know i was a bad girl.
haha.
yeah after all that i had done.
i know you wouldn't believe.
haha.
and i am really sorry for making you angry that day.
very sorry.
and i love chatting with you.
can do it again?
huhu (:

2008-07-27T12:51:00.002+08:00

it's Sunday.
as usual.
i rot at home.
cannot go out.
must finish up homeworks.
grr.
parents have been nagging on me to clean the house.
hais.
lazy lorh.
and i had done the survey on the Graduation Nite.
huhu.
left with the proposal for library.
but my dear head I/C, Sofia say she doing.
hahas.
i don't know lerh.
but actually is counted fair.
we each do one.
lol.
so now i must start doing my homework.
and study History test.
i really must start bucking up.
common test coming.
and next final year exam.
damn.
okay bye people.
:D

again you did that.
you said you will go to sleep.
but i received 2 messages until 3 am.
i told you to sleep ritex.
hais.
i don't know larh.
and i hope you meant it well.
cause i had enough of being cheated and hurt.
and yeah he allows me to call him that.
and so do i.
huhu.
and please don't worry too much.
cause it'll affect you.
and if you suffer,
i will suffer too.
though you won't let me.
and every single messages has its own meaning to me.
i can't bear to delete them.
but i have to.
all thanks to my dad.
grr.
and maybe tomorrow you'll know everything.
but promise me.
that nothing will change.
and please stop worrying for once.
cause whenever you're worried,
everything went wrong for you.
and today i have to survive not messaging you.
cause you had something on.
hais.
saded.

2008-07-26T16:37:00.003+08:00

Friday
there was morning band.
and yeah, i have memorize the pieces.
huhu.
first lesson was English.
boredom.
i keep going toilet.
and didn't complete my comprehension.
who cares.
Mother Tongue had to present the mind map.
my group was first.
i don't want go present,
so i forced Khairi go.
and Cikgu Alinah, please get their names right.
the one without spectacles is HAIRI.
and the one with spectacles is KHAIRI.
get it?
haha.
recess duty was anyhow.
first i do block.
then Ignatius ask me do canteen.
boohoo.
and History was all written work.
i go anyhow do the worksheet lorh.
and i spent a long time find the stupid word for the puzzle
but it was actually not in the book.
diao.
Science was crap.
Mdm Rohani keep demerit people points one.
and i got 14/20 for the test.
and level 2 for the practical.
ohh well.
crap.
after school went to KFC with Willy, Martyn, Arfian and Jason.
i was force to follow.
diao.
they were so noisy, funny and crappy.
haha.
yeah.
and on our way out,
we saw Hairi emo-ing.
haha.
i don't know what he was up to outside.
but i guess he waited for Willy they all.
he should have go in and have lunch us wait.
so stupid of him.
haha.
we went back school early.
cause Martyn mum's coming.
don't worry lerh.
it's not a bad case larh.
just relax aites.
then there was self-practice and sectionals.
practiced Flying High.
and i am in love with my trumpet part.
go 3rd trumpeter!
huhu.
there was National Day Rehearsal.
i sat there looking at the drummers playing.
lol.
and i waited for NPCC to end.
but never walk home with Amirah.
she went to bubble tea shop.
so i went home with Atiqah.
together with Hafeeq and his friend.
i don't know them.
they're Atiqah's friends.
haha.
and as always.
i went home, sleep.
haha.

Saturday
i had Nasi Lemak for breakfast.
huhu.
and i thought i was late to meet them(Student Councillors)
but i wasn't.
heheh.
and we eventually arrived at the place so early.
and stupidly, the event started at 10.
when we actually arrived at 8.
wtf.
so we went for breakfast at MacDonald.
but i had mine.
diao.
and Mr Seow treated us.
lol.
we were very noisy there.
played a stupid game(Mr Seow's idea) and see the OBS(Philippines) video.
fun, fun , fun.
i want go OBS can?
end of year going local one people.
woohoo.
okay enough.
back to the Youth Achiever's Forum by Bukit View Secondary.
it was not that bad larh.
i was with irritating Ling Hao.
we go for the community service learning one.
haha.
then i went back to school for band.
but it was like 2 already.
haha.
who cares.
i good girl mah.
and by the time i reach, they dismiss liao.
haha.
and i didn't do punishment cause i never come practice.
but i feel very guilty lerh.
and Sery Ma'am say no need do.
so i take my trumpet home.
see i good girl.
and me and Deon ask Mrs Chee on who going French Horn.
she say she'll think about it.
and ask us think about it also.
hais.
how?
i 50% want go, 50% want stay.
i love my trumpeters too much.
especially my 3rd trumpeters.
and at the same time,
i want go help the French Horn people for the SYF.
but..
argh.
i don't know lerh.
and Deon change his mind on going to French Horn.
so left me.
saded.

and i haven't do the proposal for the library,
the survey on Graduation Nite
and my Standing Committee stuffs.
how?
cannot ask Sofia do alone.
pity her.
today she's working till late night
and tomorrow she's having kayaking.
so i should try do something now.
huhu.
and i have forgotten how to dance Down By The Lake.
argh, someone please teach me.
and Monday i having English Trail duty.
and i am going for the Asian Shooting Competition.
woohoo.
now i have to do my SC stuffs and my homeworks.
not to forget study for tests.
and common test is coming!
argh, panic.
gosh, i have tons of things to be done.
so bye humans.
:D

today is 26th July, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOORAFIQAH!

i can't help it.
i broke down like so badly.
thank you Hafiz and all for consoling me.
and thanks to Willy and all for hearing me out.
i try to do the best i can do.
and i am sorry if i avoided u.
i have to.
and please stop worrying.
just do it for me.
and i was too stupid to do that.
and then hurt myself.
i am such dumb ass.
but at least i know the truth.
rather than being fooled.
and i know you want to be with the one you love,
and whom love you.
so search yourself for it.
that's my request for you.
i miss calling you my dear (your name).
and i still don't know what to do next.

2008-07-24T19:10:00.003+08:00

another typical day.

P.E lesson was fun.

Whine Up dance.
but i prefer the couple dance.
more enthusiasm.
huhu.
and well done Sec 2 express.
you guys did a great job.
that's what Mr Seow said.
after that was Maths.
ok it was not that bad larh.
and the topic not quite confusing.
lol.
recess duty was with Rita.
suppose to be Khairi.
at least better.
haha.
and after recess lessons are so boring.
plus then we got lectured by her.
lmao!
and then was assembly.
some boring talks on Racial Harmony.
haha.
me and Sisca was crapping lorh.
then got I&E workshop.
must present the IPW project.
my group went first.
one down and few more to go.
haha.
and we actually finish early.
so had to went band earlier.
and band was not like usual.
today quite a humorous one.
people keep cracking jokes.
haha.
and the Sec 3s was practicing for the Asian thing.
so the Sec 2s sit around and listen.
haha.
but we were dismiss so late.
Mrs Gan talk to us.
then ask for our comments all this larh.
i raise up my hands when she say 'who lost passion?'
haha.
of course larh.
and who made me so?
yeah the people.
hais.
ok fine.
i don't want talk about this.
and Saturday going for the SHINE program.
haha.
no need go band in the morning.
huhu.
then tomorrow have morning band.
must wake up early.
O.o

i can see you clearly,
though you were far from me.
and every time i saw you,
you would either look very worried
or very tired.
please don't be like this.
you worry me like hell you know.
and yes your friend told me lots of things.
and they even ask me to do something about it.
cause this few days,
you like cannot concentrate
and like the things you do are like wrong and stupid.
that's what they told me.
and can i don't see you like that anymore?
please my dear Mr hot.
and i fail to ignore you today.
grr.
cause why?
i don't want to worry you anymore.
so please stop worrying me.

2008-07-23T18:37:00.003+08:00

again, i woke up with my homeworks around me.
i feel asleep again.
and i really can't concentrate.
i am so distracted with problems.
hais.
Maths was the first period.
god damn it.
and Mrs Ong came in today.
what-the-hell.
Art was always the best lesson.
cause we have a great teacher.
huhu.
and we are requested to design something related to Racial Harmony.
gosh, i suck at drawing.
I did recess duty with TEO MING SIAN.
haha.
Science practical test was stupid.
others class all did it like normal work.
but Mdm Rohani class always has to did it as test.
wth.
and DnT lesson was quite board.
i keep dozing off when the person was explaining what to do.
haha.
after school DnT again.
so didn't went to dance.
boohoo.
and i was freezing as was sitting under the air-con.
and i don't know why,
the computer was so lag.
and i can't save my works.
what-the-fuck.
after that still went to the dance practice.
but never dance.
cause like finish liao.
so i go slack with Ming Sian, Sofia, Wilson and Kendra.
at bubble tea shop there.
and tomorrow will be dancing Whine Up during P.E lesson.
woohoo.
okay.
i cannot blog any longer.
my sister want use computer.
grrr.

i manage to ignore you for half a day.
plus yesterday night.
i couldn't help it any longer.
i just felt to empty.
so i decided to reply.
huhu.
and yeah,
that is what i feel right now.
i am so confuse and very distracted.
how?
hais.
but still deep in my heart,
i care about you.
don't anyhow say i never care hor.
and why didn't you sleep?!
i told you to not make this disturb your life ritex.
haish.

2008-07-22T19:01:00.002+08:00

Monday
i was super damn tired.
that i went home and immediately sleep.
all thanks to not sleeping.
i sleep at 3 am people.
any typical day.
i did recess duty though i don't have one.
i go and substitute people.
great one.
after school was General Meeting.
so yeah.
as usual.
and i was freezing.
plus i so urgently needed the toilet.
but i waited till everything ended.
haha.
and there's phototaking for committee.
we were all worried about our appearance.
and Hairi and Jun Ren look cute in the short pants with blazer.
haha.
and i know my picture won't be nice.
after that went to bubble tea shop with Joanne.
then we talk like till 7.
haha.
too many stuffs to talk about ritex.
huhu.

Tuesday
long curriculum time.
yeah, i hate.
I lazy to elaborate on lessons.
and today i was so emo.
hais.
sorry people.
and dance practice was best.
i already master the dance.
and Aizat was my partner today.
he's so funny yaw.
haha.
after that go sit around with Sofia.
and talk with her larh.
lol.
and i don't believe we share the same problem.
haha.
Sofia, don't worry too much aite.
and actually was suppose to wait for Amirah.
then don't know what happen,
she went home.
so i waited for Ming Sian.
thanks for being there for me.
i appreciate it lots.
your a nice friend.
huhu.
but still i don't know what to do.
how?
hais.
now must go do Maths homework.
everyday maths.
hais.
and tomorrow have Solidwork after school.
so cannot go dance practice.
damn it lorh.
grr.

i think it's the best i can do.
i can't help it anymore.
i don't want to be insulted everyday.
it hurts me so much.
i have been crying everyday.
i can't concentrate.
my mind is too distracted.
you, you, you.
everything has got to do with you.
argh!
how can i just fuck you off from my life.
but my heart tells me not to.
i can't bear to do so.
your just my everything.
i had given everything out just for you.
and i always told you i am willing to do anything for you.
even if it's a stupid one.
and the sight of you makes me tears.
i don't know why.
and i can't just not chat with you for a day.
i feel so empty.
cause your like someone i tell everything to.
i can't help it.
right now i am just too confuse.
what is the best thing to be done?
my dear MR HOT WITH CUTE DIMPLES?
my dear athiah?
maybe not anymore.

2008-07-20T13:16:00.003+08:00

currently : rotting at home with lots of homeworks.

grr.

as requested by my dear adik Maizurah,
i'll should do it.
:D

siblings or love ?

who do you love the most (NOT including family) ?
ans: my ABANG KHAIRUL AZREEN BIN ELAS (see adek so good). :D

what is your favorite food ?
ans: chocolate flavored foods. :D

what is your favorite drink ?
and: chocolate flavored drinks. :D

who is your admirer ?
ans: err, i don't know. :D

do you still have feelings with your ex ?
ans: not really. :D

what do you do when you're free ?
ans: err, something that fills up my boredom. :D

what is your most horrible and dirty of you yourself?
ans: err, what uh? :D

your special date.
ans: 14 APRIL of each year. :D

why ?
ans: cause its my special day. :D

what is your drug addict ?
ans: currently, my dear mr HOT with cute DIMPLES. :D

candies or chocolates ?
ans: obviously chocolates. :D

singing or dancing ?
ans: preferably dancing. :D

okay, done! :DD

2008-07-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

i was almost late for band.
wth.
surprisingly i woke up at 7 am.
and i sleep with my school uniform.
gosh
and there's 3 messages from someone.
sorry never reply.
and i was like so rushing to school.
luckily i mange on time lorh.
and even got time to buy waffle for breakfast.
haha.
right before warm up,
me and Adila was called up.
we were to laminate the Certificates.
walao.
don't have other day is it.
i need to warm up lorh before playing.
grrr.
and as usual, we chatted while doing our work.
like duh.
haha.
and i find it stupid.
having your lunch at like 10.30 am.
and the time is like short.
wth.
so i went with French Horn people and Amirah.
we ate at the bubble tea shop.
i bought myself cup noodle and coke.
pathetic.
we left at like 11 - 12.
and the Student Councillor was there too.
they had ushering duty.
i sat with the same people again.
and Hafiz was frustrated.
cause he want to be with the French Horn people.
lol.
and we were very noisy indeed.
and the performing place was like wtf.
so cheap nia.
haha.
and when we perform like go no one appreciate.
no point lorh.
but the main thing,
we enjoyed.
right JVCB!
and there was like photo shots.
total of 14?
hahah.
cool one.
and we saw some actors there.
woah.
hot people.
haha.
back to school, again sat with the same people.
and this time, we were very very noisy.
cause we went crazy over the actors.
haha.
and we reached school fast.
plus were release quite early.
haha.
and what Sery Ma'am said is true.
let's jiayou JVCB!
after band go talk to Ming Sian first.
he's my second listener.
and sorry if you have to wait for me.
lol.
then went to KFC with Adila, Atiqah, Farah and Syazwani.
we were very noisy there.
and gee, it was fun talking about it.
haha.
i am so tempted.
lol.
and we went back at like 5.30 pm - 6 pm.
cool.
and then continue to hang out with Atiqah till 7.
haha.
and i seriously had fun with bandmates.
fun and crazy people.
and yes.
i didn't know that the sec 3s band people are so fun to be with.
heheh.
and i don't feel like doing homework.
hais.
don't care uh.
see, i am a bad girl.
:D

[gee, i miss my dear mr hot with dimples already.]

2008-07-18T21:01:00.002+08:00

eventually there's no morning band for some reasons.
Mrs Gan informed us last minute.
and so it was a wasted trip.
when i can use that time to study for my test
and finish up my homework.
grrr.
English was wonderful.
as Mdm Norhani never come.
good lorh.
no nagging.
so i spent my little time left to study for the test.
haha.
i never fail to feel asleep in Malay class.
and today basically about Oral.
and i had handed in the project.
yeah!
again recess i kanchong with my assignments.
but this time, i manage to eat.
happy that someone?
lol.
History was half video and half textbook.
i can't believe what had happen during the war.
so unimaginable and cruel.
and i was paying full attention to what Mdm Azzah taught.
before having Science test,
Mdm Rohani go through the assessment book.
surprisingly, there's a question that came out in the test.
i am so pleased that i was paying attention then.
and the paper was not as hard as i thought.
all thanks to those people who helped me.
you know what i meant people doing duty with me.
haha.
after school tried to hand in the DnT project at the school library.
but don't have the project area folder lorh.
wth.
now i don't know what to do.
and i am freaking out.
then it was sectional/self practice.
tiring one.
but its alright.
before practice, i went to sit around with Atiqah.
as usual gossiping/talking.
hahah.
yes Atiqah, he's hot.
lol.
after band i found a Flute.
luckily i waited till the NPCC end.
i informed Vania.
somehow she sms-ed her section.
and the flute manage to find its owner.
and i didn't meant to scold you or what.
i was just reminding only.
plus, carrying out what Vania asked me to.
and i never fail to wait for NPCC to end.
which is like at 6.30 - 7.
see i so good ritex.
wait for my beloved childhood friend, Amirah.
haha.
and we slacked till 7 - 8.
heheheh.
and tomorrow there's performance.
i hope we don't perform that bad.
come on JVCB.
:DDD

i cried.
there's a reason to it.
you won't understand what i feel.
everyone is like saying that.
or it's just my thoughts.
i am confused.
and it's my fault not yours.
you don't have to worry if you listen to me.
go to her.
she's more important.
now you may not be my dear mr hot
and i won't be your dear athiah anymore.
it just might be my next decision.
and thank you so much MS for consoling me.
:D

' i love you to bits and pieces. but now i have to let you go. and i can't bear to. '

2008-07-17T19:37:00.003+08:00

i am pissed off.
argh.
please larh bandmates.
you guys want the best ritex.
so work for it.
don't just wait for the EXCOs and NCOs to remind.
and even the TEACHERS, CONDUCTORS, SIRs and MA'AMs.
please larh ehk.
take initiative can.
think about it.
and i am sorry if i was shouting at you or what.
i was too frustrated with you people.
and i know that you people will say what rights i have to scold you or etc.
i am just doing my part and role.
to help the band.
i don't want the band to be you know larh.
so we all have to work together as one.
to achieve the best.
ohh gosh.
was i too naggy?
ohh well.
there's not much lesson today.
P.E was captain's ball.
2A - 2C ran 2.4 km.
but we were having fun.
haha.
but i want retest nia.
Mr Seow say no need.
grrr.
and took height and weight.
height = 154 cm
weight = 47 kg
gosh, i am still the fattest and shortest girl in the whole wide world.
saded.
i don't know why.
but i started to pay more attention in class.
lol.
recess duty was with my bestest friend.
past few days had been doing duty with him.
it was great yaw.
and i ate during recess you know
like finally not busy doing homework.
and because that someone asked me to.
haha.
after recess lessons are boredom.
English and LiVE.
both Mdm Norhani.
lame sia.
then she just told us today about the oral thing.
when all the other class know liao.
and the presentation suck.
everyone wasn't paying attention.
wth.
and it cause my group to get low marks.
and again i was so agitated in talks.
i was paying full attention at assembly talk.
hahah.
and for the first time ever, we were release early from assembly.
and damn it lorh.
my thumb drive gong-gong one.
every time put in school computer cannot der.
then i caused someone to lost his informations.
argh.
i am very very very sorry.
and now i have to finish up the IPW and Malay project.
wtf.
and the deadline is tomorrow.
plus i have tons of homeworks to be done.
my uncompleted Malay comprehension, Science assessment book, history
and i think still got more.
argh.
and tomorrow have Science test.
plus have morning band.
so cannot sleep late.
i am so dead.
i just want to get all this done fast.
phew.

' my dear mr HOT with cute DIMPLES. your my addiction. '

2008-07-16T18:29:00.002+08:00

gosh.
i woke up like at 4 in the morning.
and i discovered i was sleeping with my projects plus assignments.
how fool i was.
i didn't finish them up.
so i had no choice but to continue doing them.
and not returning to sleep.
what-the-hell.
so yeah, i went school early.
i carried lots of cardboard to school.
haha.
Mardhiyyah larh.
she ask me bring for DnT.
then ended up never use.
lol.
Math was alright.
better then yesterday's.
i can concentrate a bit.
lol.
Art was always fun.
i started cutting my sculpture.
but i didn't paste it yet.
no time seh.
and i asked Mdm Rafilah help to cut the circles for me.
haha.
they were so perfectly and well cut.
and she gave us Toblerone.
thank you, Mdm Rafilah.
you rocks to the core.
my recess was spent finishing up my DnT.
argh.
and as usual Science was boredom.
i got Level 2 for the stupid test.
haha.
not bad larhs.
and there's gonna be a class test this Friday.
and i've yet study.
argh, who cares.
DnT was not that boring.
and me and Mardhiyyah didn't know that we were on task.
when i was like so kanchong finishing up the assignment yesterday night.
hahah.
so we were one of the fews who went to Computer Lab 2 early.
lol.
and there we were like panicking, irritated and frustrated.
our slides cannot open.
like wtf.
so we had to hand it in like tomorrow.
what-the-fish.
i was good girl during contact time.
i clean the class all by myself.
no one help me.
haha.
after school went to 2B to discuss a bit about Teacher's Day.
but ended up no time.
so went for the meeting with Mr Shawal.
he was late.
so we stayed in the library chit chatting.
and i was really motivated by what Mr Shawal said.
i really paid full attention.
cause i want to be a good leader.
and after that had committee meeting.
not all was there.
so Ms Lim basically talk about what should be don all this.
gosh.
there's so much things to be done.
i am scare i would be a lousy assistant level head.
and good luck student council.
let's all strive for the best.
and then we went for the dance.
learn a few steps.
then sayonara.
and i went home alone.
saded.
tomorrow have band.
the I&E workshop is postponed.
@#$%^&*!
so now i had to complete those tons of homeworks of mine.
phew.
and one of my assignment done.
few more to go.
go fathiah!
don't give up easily.
chey!

' i like doing recess duty at second level '

2008-07-15T18:11:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not posting for quite long.
i was too busy.
lol.
so here's a quick review.

Sunday
we went for the ROMZI&JULEHA theater.
it's like Romeo & Juliet.
gosh.
it's so nice and romantic.
i like it.
and i can't believe that i teared.
haha.
we met up.
and some of them was late.
then we thought that we were late for the show.
lol.
after the show went Marina Square for lunch? dinner?.
argh, anything can.
and we were very noisy.
and yes we did lots of camwhoring.
hahah.
then we went to Singapore River.
but most of them went home.
not fun already.
so camwhored again.
haha.
yes we did lots of them.
but i lazy upload the pics.
and we went back like at 8+ pm.
cause tomorrow school mah.
i spent my night finishing up my stupid assignments.
lol.

Monday
today my super bad day.
everything went wrong.
sorry people if i was so kanchong today.
firstly, i forgot to bring long sleeve shirt and cork shoes.
which Sofia wanted to borrow.
then i forgot my P.E short.
which my friend wanted to borrow.
then i was like panicking like hell.
gosh.
stupid ritex.
i had no choice to rang my mum up.
to bring me the shirt and shoes.
and what-the-hell.
i told her to come at 9.45,
she came at 8.45.
i was like @#$%^&*!
i was having lesson lorh.
argh, but who cares.
and so i had class and SC photo taking.
and i was always one of the shortest one.
saded nia.
and after school had Humanities Trail duty.
i go do with Ling Hao.
we were playing tic-tac-to.
and Ling Hao had his ways to win.
haha.
and we were stupid to wait there,
when actually the game has ended
cause we thought still got some groups.
haha.
so funny.
then i waited till like 6-7 pm.
what-the-hell.
come out so late seh you all.
but never mind.
i have patience.
so i didn't follow the SCs to eat.
sorry people.
especially Joanne.
cause she waited for me.

Today
i forgot that we were release late.
lol.
and so there's no English.
yeah baybey.
and i love doing recess duty.
heheheh.
and Music was fun.
i got Angklung number 6.
lol.
and Art was interesting.
in fact very interesting.
doing sculpture is so cool.
but now we doing basic ones.
using recycled materials.
Math is getting bored.
the class is too noisy to concentrate.
and we got our test paper back.
scored 20/25.
and wth.
Mardhiyyah scored 25/25.
crazy sia.
lol.
and Science was what-the-hell.
suddenly got test.
then we never study.
stupid sia.
i was too slow in doing the Malay comprehension.
need to concentrate more.
lol.
and after school was suppose to do the DnT project.
but we didn't.
cause cannot stay in school.
what-the-hell sia.
so i had to complete it alone.
boohoo.
and went for the Teachers' Day discussion.
at Macdonald.
i don't want perform.
but my dear Abang Hafiz told me to.
hais.
no choice.
argh.
and now i have to complete the DnT project.
wtf!
i had projects larh.
damn it.
and there's dance practice for Aces Day tomorrow.
i have told all the Sec 2s Liaison people.
lol.

' how i wish all this was true, not just some rumors '

2008-07-12T16:57:00.003+08:00

Thursday
there was investiture.
best.
officialy a,
a Student Councillor; Liaison, Assistant Level Head.
that's my new responsibility.
and i told you i will look stupid today.
going to school with lots of stuffs.
hahah.
and i was late to meet Hairi all to go take blazer.
lol.
and the Sec 2s made a nuisance before assembling.
lol.
and right before the investiture i was already perspiring.
and it was worsen with the blazer.
i was so damn nervous.
i was shivering okay.
you know larh.
i was afraid of my attire larh.
especially my shoe.
when taking the certificate, i was like rushing.
then when Ms Lim talk tome i more nervous.
and it's obvious that i quickly bow and walk away.
haha.
standing on the rises is more worse.
i was at the end.
and it's squeezy lorh.
and Hairi keep asking me to move more.
what-the-hell.
i almost fall.
and right infront me was bunch of crowds.
i tried pretended there's no one there.
hahah.
and then level heads must go take the guests for tour.
i take the two Regent Sec girls.
with Hairi, Aizat, Khairi.
i seriously don't know what to say.
then i anyhow say.
hahah.
it's an experience lorh.
then it was band.
Mrs Chee requested someone from trumpet to go to French Horn.
and it's either me or Deon.
and i didn't take picture!
shit.

Friday
Morning band was wonderful.
Around The World In 80 Measures.
i like.
Lessons per normal.
and what-the-fuck, i never bring my history file.
lucky Mdm Azzah give chance and never demerit points.
and after school was NCOs meeting.
yeah it was a long one.
but not all were there.
and it spoil my plan.
urgh.
damn it.
so we talk all about band problems.
i am not elaborating.
then i go follow Atiqah go bubble tea shop.
and back to school.
then i go sit with Ming Sian, Wilson, Shireen.
and i eat.
happy that someone.
haha.
and what-the-hell.
they can't stop disturbing me about that thing.
damn it larh.
and then there was practice.
not really practice larh.
it's just self practice and sectional.
so yeah i go one corner of the fitness corner and practiced.
and then we went up to 3A cause we thought it was raining.
after that they celebrated Vania birthday.
and i waited for Amirah till her NPCC ends.
see i so good.
and what-the-fuckin-hell.
i hurt my legs.
and it's real painful.

Today
band.
i thought i was late lorh.
we did combine first.
and halfway through combine Mrs Alice Gan called the welfare officers.
do graduation stuffs.
correct timing yah.
haha.
so lunch was ridiculous.
i was with Azura and Aini.
we went to Macdonald.
then to bubble tea shop.
and then like there's no time already.
we were rushing like hell.
and i can still remember how cute Azlin and Aini was.
haha.
we thought we were late.
as the band starts to run.
then Azlin was running up the stairs withe her hotdog bun and bubble tea.
and Aini was with her McSpicy.
they were so cute lorh.
hahah.
i was laughing like hell.
then Tiac Woo sir took over.
the band improved.
and then it was sectional.
me and Deon go try out French Horn.
hell yeah.
it's so freaking nice and sexy.
and i learn to play it.
thanks to Azhar sir.
nice sia the sound.
on second thought, i love French Horn.
but only one person can go lerh.
i want go please.
haha.
after band got NCOs meeting again.
about yesterday larh.
same thing.
and don't worry Sery ma'am.
it's safe with me.
and after band go with the bunch of crazy people to Teh Tarik.
but we didn't eat.
just sit around.
haha.
and now my sister work until like in the morning then come back.
so i can play computer long.
yeah.
but now cannot always eat Delifrance bread.
cause she changed work.
lol.
and tomorrow i going for the Drama Outing.
i am looking forward to it.
heheh.
and i have yet to do my homeworks and projects.
argh, lazy larh.
and i scared no time.
hais.
and maybe tomorrow i go for the band fiesta after the drama.
:DDD
' i fall for you, over and over again '

2008-07-09T15:59:00.004+08:00

he just can't stay still.

whoops.
today i woke up late.
haha.
and it was raining sia.
i hate.
and today i totally sleepy.
don't know why sia.
and i screwed up my Math test.
and Art was interesting?
and Science is always boring.
DnT was so so larh.
but i always have no ideas.
grrr.
and i went home early you know.
heheh.
but i didn't went home straight.
i went on a detour on 99.
and i got another cut there.
all thanks to ____.
thank you very much.
and i had _____.
okay enough.
not elaborating.
hahah.

and i realise there's lots of cuts on my hand.

after the 'fighting'.

pain sia.

and tomorrow i'll be running 2.4km.

alone i guess.

and if you saw me tomorrow,

just don't laugh.

cause i'll look quite stupid tomorrow.

as i'll be carrying a coat cover, shoe bag, trumpet and my school bag itself.

stupid sia.
and tomorrow is investiture.
yeah baybey.
i can't wait.

:DDDDD

and i am super happy today; because of you.

2008-07-08T20:17:00.005+08:00

i hate Tuesday.

cause curriculum time very long.
and boring.
IPW was hell.
my group is the most noisy and messy one.
yeah.
and now i gave up on them.
and i dump everything at the back of the classroom.
see how evil i am.
heheh.
and Music was fun.
but i still don't understand how does Mr Dzul shack his Angklung that way.
like what-the-hell.
and Math was no comment.
everyday have homeworks.
plus there's test tomorrow.
shit.
and on second thought,
i miss MR NG sia!
Art was all about sculpture.
every single lesson.
sometimes i get bored sia.
but never mind.
i love ART.
I switched off during Malay.
cause i hate doing composition.
yes i do.
and as usual English is super boring.
every single lesson with Mdm Norhani is boring.
and rehearsal was (wait let me find words).
ohh yah.
tiring, fun, indescribable and etc.
so i don't know what else to say.
Student Councilors should know yah.
and i have prepared everything for investiture.
and great, i won't be dancing.
and now i have to go do my stupid Math homework.
and study for my test also.
what-the-fucking-hell.

and thanks for the cut ehk.
it's pain you know.
but it's okay.
and i want it back!
i demand.
if you never give,
i'll snatch it back.
and i have done it.
and so must you.
and i am trying to forget it okay.
it's hard you know.
and i am happy today.
in fact very?
heheheh.
:DDDDD

and WongKaiWen said my blog was dull.
so i added some colors.
:D

2008-07-07T09:23:00.004+08:00

i have big eye bags.
due to lack of sleep and too much crying.
and i didn't eat for 5 days.
and making him worry.
every problems after another.
it's just disturbing my life.
but i am very glad it's over now.
i can have a bit peace on my mind.
but the friendship part i am still not sure.
all thanks to you.
you make the big difference in me.
thanks for the 'lecture'.
haha.
yes you did.
you made me realise.
in fact everything is all thanks to you.
i didn't expect them to come and apologise.
i had forgive and forget.
thank you so much boy.
you helped me alot.
and i owe you one okey.
and i'll listen to whatever you say.
:D

and i thought its all over.
and why must each and everyone of them insult me.
i didn't post it on my blog.
why must you do this.
but its too late.
everything is happening.
and yes i'll be go on hated.
and you can have life the way you want it.
i gave up.
and even 'he' that your sis mentioned in the blog.
i didn't said i want to be his only girl-friend.
i didn't.
you can have it back like the way it was.
and i apologized for everything.
i know i am at wrong.
even if i am not.
i'll still apologise.
i gave up on life.
and yes i deserve it larh kn.
its ok.
again, i apologise from the bottom of my heart.
and it's true.
D:

2008-07-05T16:13:00.002+08:00

i just realize that yesterday post no picture.
lol.
and this is my last Saturday.
mugging at home.
next week onwards band.
hais.
and like finally i got a new school shoe.
but unfair.
brother got another one.
which makes him have 3.
wtf.
staying at home with no one to chat/sms is so boring.
and i don't feel like studying lorh.
though i have to.
and there's test(s) next week.
damn.
and i have not yet bought my long sleeve shirt.
and i was told to help inform the girls to buy panty hose.
and Monday is a holiday.
but then had to go to Mardhiyyah house.
to do DnT project.
my days are so packed can say.
and yeah, i mastered the dance.
ohh yeah.
okay bye.
i don't know what to blog already.

' i miss your company '

2008-07-04T20:18:00.001+08:00

Fridays are the best.
cause go home early.
morning band was canceled.
there was no flag raising.
waste time oi come early.
and english is always boring.
it's the teacher lorh.
and Arfian was emo at Mother Tongue.
and my pain is acting again.
shiat.
plus there's homework and the project deadline is extended.
thank you Cikgu!
and i like doing recess duty at classroom block(:
as lalalala.
and History was video again.
and Science was nonsense.
Mdm Rohani keep scolding for nothing.
wtf sia.
and after school was suppose to eat at KFC lorh.
but thanks to those guys, we made a wasted trip there.
as then we went back school.
don't know larh they.
hungry siot.
especially us.
wtf.
so we went back to school.
nothing to eat lorh.
argh.

and you worry me so much.
told you to, but you didn't listen kan.
i know you that you weren't alright.
and sorry if i worry you too.
how cool is that?
we worry each other.
lol.
and please listen to me okay.
don't worry me anymore.
and i don't want to be scolded again.
and now there's a third person.
how?
and can i say i had fun?
:D

2008-07-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

and lessons are boring.

2 period with Mdm Norhani every Thursday.
wtf sia.
and i don't understand what the Maths teacher taught.
and there's homework.
shiat.
and i didn't finish my 2.4 km.
damn it larh.
i almost fainted.
like wtf.
first time oi like that.
and i want go run next week.
and Youth's day celebration was not like how i expected.
2D was hold back after school.
for the Maths thing.
waste time sia.
then band was @#$%^&*!
yeah, band people should know.
and now no more practices on Wednesday.
but changed to Friday and Saturday.
WTF!
and i am too lazy to go for religious class.
cause must finish the Malay project.
damn it.
tomorrow have morning band!

and tomorrow's friday.
you took all my things lerh.
and i am very sorry if i have to result to doing something else.
really sorry.
and i know you really can't take it.
that's why i promised you tomorrow afternoon.
cause i can't bear seeing you suffer.
:D

2008-07-02T19:10:00.002+08:00

and your the superboy :D

and i am so tired.
school's alright.
DnT was chaos.
have to come up with 60 ideas in like 30 mins.
wtf.
Science was boring lorh.
its not the subject; but the teacher.
and Maths finally no homework.
and dance was same.
i improve you know.
ohh yes.
and all thanks to Vanessa!
then only go until 3 like that.
cause must go band.
and band was boring seh.
i rather go practice lorh.
cause cannot play instrument as got oral.
wtf.
ok bye people.
i want go religious class.
:D

haiyo, don't follow me larh.
let me suffer alone.
hais.
you make me worry lorh.
i know you can't take it.
and if you're in pain,
i'll be too.
and let's wait together till Friday yah.
:DDD

2008-07-01T19:26:00.002+08:00

curriculum time boring.
i hate lessons.
and there was Maths supplementary.
teacher ask me question, i never answer.
i was daydreaming.
wtf.
and i have tons of projects.
LiVE project; which i don't know still need do or not.
Malay project; and like they ask me do all.
IPW; again all depending on me.
DnT project; lucky have Mardhiyyah.
and investiture coming up.
need to buy align skirt and long sleeve shirt.
and i still don't know how to dance properly.
and there's performance i think.
hais. and i still can't play the pieces.
and dance practice just now was alright.
and tomorrow there's another one.
then still must go band.
argh.
i so busy with school.
and i got no time do project lerh.
die lorh.

and i sorry if i wasn't myself.
too much stuffs bothering me.
and i can't concentrate well.
i am too stress up with stuffs.
you, friends, study, jobs.
hais.
and it's 3 days liao.
he knows what i am talking about.

i am always looking forward for each day. :DDD

2008-06-30T18:44:00.002+08:00

and today school's normal.
but Mdm Norhani never come.
so no class photo taken.
diao.
and there's Math & Science homework.
damn.
and general meeting was normal larh.
liaison people.
haha.
and got dance practice larh.
i suck at it.
seriously larh.
need buck up.
told you i suck at dancing.
and tomorrow is a long day.
and there's dance again.
fish.
i can't dance.
even boys do better than me.
and yah, i cut my hair.
and its like long short.
then hard to tie.
wtf.

and you cheer me up.
your existence made me so.
and i can't ignore you a day.
your like someone whom i trust.
than all the others.
and i love having your company.
:DDD

2008-06-29T13:33:00.003+08:00

and Friday i went to SYF opening ceremony.
i had lots of fun.
and Saturday i went out with cousin.
we did lots of camwhoring.
and today i stayed at home do homework.
wtf.
and tomorrow have general meeting and dance practice till 6.30.
i have informed my members.

and after you told me that,
i am sorry.
i may not be the same person anymore.
the cheerful one.
and what do you care if i cut.
your too late to tell me.
and thanks for being understanding yah last time.
and you made me lost trust in you.
and think that your just like them.
i just don't know what to do.
get you out of my life?
i won't be the same.
and i can say i am very sad.
3 words.
life is unfair.

i have no mood to blog.
bye.

2008-06-26T18:43:00.008+08:00

i woke up late sia.

but lucky still manage to meet them on time.
the same people again.
lols.
and i failed my 2.4 km.
1st time sehx.
18 + mins.
wtf!
must go re-test.
i want get back my 13-15 mins.
and we came late for our Maths lesson.
cause we waited for Mardhiyyah so long for the keys.
yeah.
and today had 3 hours with Mdm Norhani.
wtf sia.
so boring lerh.
tomorrow still must bring newspaper.
hais.
and enrichment was boring can say.
about oral presentation.
i was so sleepy.
and then had to go band larh.
cause finish 4pm mah.
and band was released early.
i am not going religious class today.
lazy larh. no friend also.
and tomorrow there's history.
and there's morning band.
must wake up early lerh.
saded.
heheh.

and thanks for listening me out.
you didn't have your break just to listen to me.
i appreciate it lots.
i feel better a bit.
maybe i should just ignore them.
thanks a lot ya.
and tomorrow you not going MT class.
unfairness. haha.
:DDDDD

2008-06-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

again.

i went school with the same people.

lol.
and today lots of my teacher never come.
haha.
like 3rd day of school already sick.
so my CM never come.
no need see the Mdm Norhani.
and my maths teacher never come also.
and i was lucky lorh.
cause i never bring my exercise book sia.
haha.
science was better than last time.
i can study better when split us into this way.
i belong to the Group 1(A1 & A2).
heheh.
i am good at science.
but not other subjects.
lols.
and DnT was hell.
we have to do some crazy assignment.
ohh man.
i hate designing stuffs.
we had to complete all that in pathetic 15 weeks. phew.
lucky it's pair work.
so i chose clever girl, Mardhiyyah.
heheh.
and after school we want eat cheese fries and drink coffee blended lorh.
but it was closed D:
so me, mardhiyyah, siying, tzy yiing and sisca went to some coffee shop.
hahah.
and i waited so long for my food to be ready.
wtf.
band was great can say.
Mrs Chee not there.
and then Sir Huadong lead us.
haha.
so we played the 19 July pieces.
and i go play anyhow.
hahah.
i soo bad.
and after band i go loiter with Atiqah.
haha.
yeah.
we went home first larh.
and i went home at 9+pm.
as usual go and talk2.
yeah, girls mah xD
and tomorrow have enrichment.
so go band like only for 1 hour.
damn it.
i don't want.
i want go band.
:DDD

' and it's not like how you thought Amirah(2A).
and the people who told her that, fuck off.
you know nothing shut up can.
i'm not picking up a fight here.
just don't spread wrong stuffs.

FUCKERS '

2008-06-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

i met Atiqah in the morning.
walk school with her.
got companion better.
lol.
ohh yah,with Shahmirul also.my ex-primary school friend.
hahah.
and flag raising was super long.
Mr Thomas and Mr Shawal talk2 larh.
telling that we won't be changing school on 2010.
and lots more stuff.
i was daydreaming. xD
and the whole day got PD enrichment.
by Adam Khoo that one.
hahah.
i had lots of fun.
the trainer was fun bodoh.
haha.
he changed my life i can say.
and after school me and Amirah approach Cikgu Alinah.
about the project.
hahah.
we so brave ritex.
lols.
then we stay back and do abit larh.
but i still don't understand.
but Amirah does.
wtf?!
hahah.
and i went back at 6pm.
cool uh.
go and loiter with Amirah.
and then Jiayi came along.
lols.
and Hairi, you need not feel guilty kay.
you did nothing wrong.
tomorrow starting studying.
and there's band!
heheh.
:DD

' school make us communicate more '

2008-06-23T19:00:00.004+08:00

blogskin changed. :D
ahh. today school reopen.
heheheh.
like finally.
no need stay at home and rot.
lols.
Amirah was late!
haha.
i waited for her so long under the block.
and i can't find Atiqah in the morning.
for my band badge and tie.
so i didn't wear tie for flag raising.
and Adila caught me.
haha.
there was so much changes larh shex.
our class mentor change to Mdm Norhani
as Mr Ng not in school for 10 weeks.
wtf sia!
argh. damn it.
then our maths teacher also change larh.
to Mrs Ong.
stupid sia.
our LV teacher also.
to Mdm Norhani larh.
and our literature teacher also change
to Miss Suthititam.
as Ms Maslinda on martenity leave.
gosh, everything changes like hell.
i just hope it won't affects me much.
heheh.
and tomorrow no lesson again.
YESH!
go enrichment.
wohoo!
lol.
so tomorrow beg empty.
and abang yes adek is stress.
and adek not sombong(arrogant).
i don't want talk to you cause your gf there what.
scared later she scold.
so go and have a happy life with her.
:DD

p.s. yes! i saw you again. lol.
p.p.s.ohh god, was that a sign of jealousy?

2008-06-22T10:33:00.003+08:00

today's Sunday.
tomorrow's Monday.
damn it.
i haven't finish my English homework.
i lazy do larh.
and also my Malay project.
argh.
and tomorrow i don't know what should be brought.
Mr Ng never give new timetable.
then how?
argh, don't care.
yesterday i spent my day cleaning my room.
together with the living room.
so i had no time to do homework.
fish.
so now i must do the project and homework.
lazy seh.

i miss school. not studying. but friends.
:DDD

2008-06-20T15:06:00.006+08:00

Thursday.
ohh yes.
i went to my cousin's birhtday.
she's 16 liao.
and i gave her last minute present.
the photo up there and hearts formed into her name.
lol.
and she's very lucky.
she's the only girl lorh.
haha.
and her cake was super nice.
my aunt would always cook mee goreng and sup tulang(not sure of the name)
and i love them.
hehehe.
and we camwhored!
haha.
that's us.
and i went back at 11+ pm.
my house is not that far.
just a block away.
lol.

Friday.
i am finishing up my homeworks.
and damn it.
my room is in a mess again.
haha.
i was searching for my things.
and eventually, i make a mess.
haha.
must clean again.
hais.
and i am still unsure about the malay project.
WTF!

okay pictures for thursday :D
i know my face sucks.

2 more days to school reopen.

YEAH!

2008-06-18T14:31:00.002+08:00

good news.
i have done 3/4 of my LiVE project.
haha.
i just don't know what picture should be put inside.
school reopen then go ask the others do.
heheh.
and now i have to finish up my homework.
all english.
damn it; i suck at it.
and its like few days to school reopen.
i am looking forward.
lol.
but i am worried about Mother Tongue project.
everyone is not doing.
and i also don'tknow who are my members.
and Cikgu Alinah like have given us a long time to do it.
since before MYE.
damn long ritex.
i forget what suppose to be done.
hais.
be prepared to get scolded lorh.
and today must go religious class.
cannot watch chinese drama @ 7 and 9.
shiat.
okay bye people.
i am finishing up my homework.
book review and summary.
i hate.
:DDD

' damn, i missed it again and again '

2008-06-17T13:46:00.003+08:00

credits to ADILA :D

i miss band sehx! (:

right now, i am addicted to playing DragonFable.
haha.
long time never play.
primary school kids game can say.
lol.
i play for fun.
and i want challenge with my brother.
haha.
and yeah!
i have cleaned the living room.
i also bathed by younger brother.
more pocket money.
haha.
i have to start doing the powerpoint slides.
damn it.
and people, how about the Malay project?
cannot i do alone ritex.
chish.
okay bye.
i want continue playing.
LOL.

'i dare not chat with you.'

2008-06-16T17:49:00.005+08:00

yes. i am so busy today.
i woke up early morning.
and went to do project.
kai wen was late.
fuck.
and our topic is like #$%^&*!
don't know how to summarize it
seriously uh.
i don't care.
it's just LiVE project.
i would just copy and paste.
haha.
and the we go eat LJS.
at like 11+.
early ritex for a lunch.
and i ate the chocolate cream.
too tempted after watching 'Charlie and The Chocolate Factory'
haha.
then i go meet adila larh.
we were like to meet at 1.15.
and i was super early though.
haha.
we went to buy bubble tea before going to school.
and then we help mrs alice gan with the certs.
ignore the name on the previous post.
it's suppose to be mrs not ms.
lol.
and yeah.
so we just did what she told us to.
and we make a lot of mistakes.
like not changing some words appropriately.
haha.
and we were out of paper.
damn it lorh.
so we went out.
and we search for the paper.
all the 6-7 shops don't have it.
stupid lor.
adila, sorry to make you go around looking for it.
until like very far like that.
and then we have to go back to school
to return mrs alice gan her money.
and we have to continue with the certs another day.
hais.
and people i collected $4 today.
for the donation.
haha.

you guys do master plan never tell me? nevermind.

2008-06-15T13:29:00.001+08:00

i have to clean the house again.
damn.
and yesterday i went jogging.
haha.
i want lose weight mah.
cause im fat.
today maybe going again.
heheh.
alright, tomorrow doing LiVE project.
at 10 am J.E library.
hais.
afternoon must go school.
help ms alice gan with graduation certificate.
damn it lorh.
me and adila.
and i was wondering should i change my url?
i don't know lerh.
hais.
okay. don't know what to post liao.
bye people.
ohh yah,
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DADS.
:DDD

2008-06-14T12:23:00.003+08:00

yesterday band was great.
seriously uh.
azura was absent.
sad sehx.
then i joined farah, adila, atiqah, aini and nadhirah.
lol.
their great humans.
sectional, i was busy cleaning the welfare cupboard with adila.
man, there's so many unimportant things.
and we threw a way like a big trash bag full of stuffs.
now the cupboard is better.
without the 2000s stuffs we have found.
lunch sucks.
what i want eat all finish.
damn.
games was super fun.
of course larh.
we were playing like mad.
and combine was fun too.
we screwed that Eres Tu piece.
i mean trumpeters.
we played that bar 55 onwards well.
lol.
and i spent like $5 at the Pearl Delight.
lol.
i bought 2 cheese fries, 1 normal fries and coffee blended.
but not all mine larh.
haha.
and yes,
we receive our long awaited $10.
yeah baybey.
but i used it all up.
damn.
and i am planning to start project next week.
plus my homework too.
and i have no idea when to start collecting the donations.
anybody want donate find me horr.
lol.
and jvcb, if want collect ask me along.
haha.
and i want find jobs.
hehe.

'abang, i was expecting to see you. but i had no idea what time you came back.'

2008-06-12T14:07:00.003+08:00

ohh yes.
today i woke up early.
so i cook breakfast for my family.

lol.
boring sehx stay at home.
nothing to do.
hais.
okey later i going Jurong Point.
alone sehx.
pathetic ain't it.
go help my sis send her cd.
lame lorh.
and i haven't even start a single school work.
lazy larh.
and tomorrow have band.
8 to 5.
long ritex.
okay people.
bye.

damn, i missed it again.

2008-06-11T12:17:00.002+08:00

ah yes.
i'm back from the sec 1 training camp.
its a success i can say.
best siol.
:D
then got night walk.
and we changed it a the last minute.
i do with mardhiyyah.
at 1T1 stairs there.
we were afraid can say.
as both of us are cowards.
heheh.
then got larh something happen.
ok, i'm not elaborating.
and the sec1s did well.
despite just learning lurus and pusings
together withe the basic techniques.
then need to buck up.
ahh yesh.
sometimes we were slacking.
sorry sery m'aam.
and i never do sentry duty.
cause go debrief.
hehe.
and i do shower duty with aini.
heheh.
and mardhiyyah was sick.
hais. pity her.
i enjoyed the camp.
and congrats to the winners.
:DD
and friday, a lot of people not in band.
saded sehx.
and i must come at 7.
do stock check.
and i am still tired.
hahah.
bye people.

i know i am just nobody to you.

2008-06-08T11:21:00.003+08:00

okay. this is a long ago one.

i have pack my bag for the camp.
i am all prepared.
lols.
and tomorrow i meeting mardhiyyah
at 6.30
for breakfast at mac.
then must report at 7.15.
shiat.
i don't know got enough time.
and i am still afraid about sentry.
and cannot bring handphone sehx.
hais.
later i am going swimming
with that chick up there.
hehe.
oh no, i will be getting darker.
lol.
and i am off to camp people.
9-10 June.
and so is abang.
9-13 June.
bye :D

2008-06-07T17:37:00.004+08:00

new skin people :D
and today.
another ordinary day.
stay at home.
but i am not cleaning my house.
haha.
and i pack my bag already
for the sec 1 training camp.
ohh i can't wait.
heheh.

and yesterday.
went to school
for sec 1 training camp preparation
heheh.
we did everything.
and it ended at like 4+.
cause some of them go buy things.
then i followed aini home.
take her stuffs.
cause i don't want stay in school alone
while waiting for the npcc.
and i ended up came back late.
hehe.
sorry amirah.
and i am so afraid to do the
NIGHT WALK THING,
SENTRY DUTY,
& SHOWER DUTY.
hais.
i do shower duty alone sehx.
at 1st level.
then the night walk and sentry duty,
i do with felyna.
yeah!
and i watch BANGKU KOSONG.
a scary movie.
the 2nd time.
we whole family watch together.
:D

that was close. but i still missed it. damn.

2008-06-05T18:21:00.002+08:00

i love the colors.
heheh.
but i don't agree with the caption.

band was best.
cause it's short.
and we like helping the librarian.
heheh.
and hafiz become conductor sehx.
go hafiz!
and mardhiyyah also starts her job.
go mardhiyyah!
heheh.
and if i am sorry band mates.
if i like scold you because of your attire.
i am so sorry.
i am just doing my job.
tomorrow got meeting.
for the sec 1 training camp.
must wake up early.
and i am bringing home instrument.
plus, i plan to wait for npcc till 6.
hahah.
bye people.
i want go religious class.
:D

ohh boy, i am gonna be jealous again.

2008-06-05T10:21:00.002+08:00

okay.
yesterday was like band uh.
a long one.
tired lerhs.
and i got to know my post.
at first they say i treasurer.
then i was like shock
plus #@*%&!
then change back to welfare.
heheh. i like :D
cause they had forgotten kai wen.
lols.
and our little mardhiyyah is
our assistant secretary sehx.
chey bah! :D
and yeah!
i got to go sec 1 training camp.
wohoo.
sentry. sentry. sentry.
but my one early do lerhs.
hais.
night walk.
heheh.
i can't wait for it.
:DDD

and today have band.
but not a too long one.
heheh.
and mardhiyyah taking attendance today.
heheheheh. :D

2008-06-03T10:06:00.002+08:00

ohh boy, you're irresistible.
hotHOThot.
i meant it.
:DDD

okok.
yesterday i went to swimming.
woohoo.
with my siblings.
lols.
and i turned darker
i can say.
haha.
ok not elaborating.
and actualy today have meeting
for the sec 1 training camp.
but it was canceled.
ohh well.
so i have to spent my day
cleaning the house.
as yesterday no time to.
ok lor.
bye people.

2008-06-02T09:20:00.002+08:00

keep it a secret kay.

eheh, i miss camps.
the 1 day NCO camp.
and Student Leader camp sehx.
i miss the people larh.
especially my NCO camp group.
GLADIATOR :DD.
seriously uhs.
and i miss all the funs we had in camp.
and next coming camp is
SEC 1 TRAINING CAMP.
haha.
can bully sec 1.
LOLS.
I MISS CAMPS :D

andand i'm gonna spent my holiday
cleaning the house.
not the whole holiday larhs.
haha.
good girl ritex.
:D

2008-06-01T12:07:00.003+08:00

argh! stupid sia.

im like back from camp now.
like finally.
and here's my last week life.
so long already.

monday.
basically went to school for drills.
and yeah.
super tired.
and i sleep late
though the next day was the camp.

and tuesday.
wake up early
to like do last minute packing.
had to meet up at interchange
like 6.30.
me and atiqah
was like kanchong.
scared late mah.
haha.
at MRT
we were like noisy.
haha.
talking like nobody business.
and the journey was like loong.
stupid ritex.
from Jurong East to Ang Mo Kio.
the whole day at camp
was basically drills.
revise drills we learn.
like so damn tired uh.
butbut i like my group.
the so called trainee
was so fun lor.
he's not like the other groups.
but when combine,
die.
the sir was super fierce.
and if not wrong,
we did quite a lot of pumping.
and actually the Student Leader
was like suppose to go home after dinner,
but Mrs Chee asked to stay till lecture.
which ended at 9.30+.
and we were like so rushing home.
and super tired.
i reach home at going 12 like dat.
have to fetch my brother from aunt's house with dad.
like stupid.
and i haven't pack for the next day camp.
seriously, i am so tired.
diaos.

andand wednesday.
wake up early
just to pack bag.
stupid ritex.
i can't open my eyes.
and i reach school at 7.30,
instead of 7.50.
like waddehell.
my eyes was like small.
cannot open.
and the camp was like basically talks
and got some activities uhs.
then got one game horr.
i very bad luck one.
stand beside wei ting one.
then always got pulled hard.
and even fall down.
hahah.
first day sec2 & sec3 together.
fun uhs.
like joking around.
at times of the talk,
i was like sleeping.
lols.
the food horr.
no comment.
i still prefer Deyi's food.
and there's like Talentime.
my group was like camp up with stupid idea.
im not elaborating.
haha
maybe a bit.
aizat was like the joker here.
hairi was like Simon.
jessie was the nice judge.
ezzaty, shi hwee, shireen, aidil, syazwani, yi ting and me
was like the small kids.
haha.
the Student Leader should know what happen.
lols.
and unexpectedly,
we won 2nd.
haha.
and there's mass dance.
we dance Whine Up.
seriously, i can't get their steps.
hahah.
thanks shaffiqa for leading me.
though i still can't get it.
i keep doing wrong steps.
like i said,
i can't dance.
night time,
Ming Sian was scary.
you know what i meant.
im not elaborating.
and me and shireen decided no to sleep.
we talk talk for a while.
and like in the end we fall asleep.
haha.
to be correct,
we were gossiping.

andandand thursday.
we all woke up late.
despite me, shaffiqa, shireen, sukainah
set alarms.
hahah.
we were like so tired.
cause not enough sleep.
and me and shireen was like walking around.
we quickly bath.
and there was supposingly have PT.
but i was raining.
we had games then.
breakfast was okey.
then sec2 & sec3 separated.
sec2 had different talk.
then got one games.
like amazing race.
we were tied together along our shoulders.
and had to go around
answering the questions.
then i was like stupid holding the insect.
not letting it go.
haha.
and one time i banged on the door.
like waddehell.
and there's talk on public speaking
by mdm zainah, mrs bala and mdm azzah.
the talk was quite useful larh.
and we break camp at 5.
after that i go bubble tea.
heheheh.
after i reach home,
i never sleep.
got religious class.
but ended up don't have.
then me and amirah was like loitering around.
and gossiping about him.
haha.

andandandand friday.
wait a minute.
its so fast already friday.
and i don't remember what day it was.
too busy till forget.
hahah.
i spent my friday.
sleeping.
haha.
so that's a boring one.

andandandandand saturday.
go discuss about sec 1 camp at library.
ended up not so uh.
okay.
i'm not elaborating.
:D

andandandandandand sunday.
eh, i was cleaning my room!
heheh.
and the dust was like omg.
seriously uh.
and i'm gonna continue cleaning today.
cause i left my room half-clean.
haha.

eheh, he's HOT larh kn.
:D

omg, what a looooooooooong post.
(: